lunatic.fragile.bitch

yeah.i almost got crazy.it was very tiring.not just physically,but emotionally and psychologically as well.seven days had passed,but a lot of things had happened.a lot of realizations.a lot of worries.i don't even know how to put all of those in words.i honestly don't know how the week started.worst,i don't know that it ended until i found myself doing this stuff.just an indication that it's my time to think things over once again.yeah,this week is over.and oh!what a week it has been.

work matters-





i have been with the company i am currently working for one year, one month and 13 days to be exact.that's 408 days.quite long,right?but no progress.oh well,shall being the number one team out of 40 teams the account has could be something that i myself can be proud of?i guess.but hey,that's not everything that i can be.this is not the life i am aiming to have.and i don't want to limit myself and completely indulge in such.i hate it.i honestly do.

i hate a routinary life.everybody does,i guess.
i am getting tired dealing with (excuse me for the term) stupid texans.oh!pity them.really.
i hate the environment.the workplace.
i hate the way employees are being treated.
i hate the political system that it has.
i hate it.i just do.

but on the other side,probably the reason why i am still with the company and finally learned to value my work will be because -

i love the people i work with.
*just a few of them, i repeat,just a few of them*

school matters-



i missed being in the academe.
i missed being "simpleng mag-aaral"
i missed the feeling it brings whenever i wake up and heavy rain is pouring that you are just waiting for information dissemination that "hey!classes have been suspended today!"
i missed the food trip at night whenever our classes would end.
i missed chatting with people that showed me the real meaning of friendship.
i missed being with people who i know accepted and valued me for who am i.
i missed everything about being a student.
and this is something that is ironic.


family matters -



issue of the week i guess.
THANKFUL.VERY MUCH.
that's all i can say.

heart matters -




he won my heart.
he was, and he'll forever does.


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i honestly don't know why amidst the deep thinking i came up with such.
random.
might be senseless.
i had a hard time putting all those in words.
and so i limited it.
two,three words are enough.safe.

i am lunatic.
i am fragile.
i am bitch,and
i love myself for that.

potch (november 24, 2008 - may 14, 2009)

you will be missed...

enraptured

“Now this is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning." -- Winston Churchill

this was stated by Hon. Carlito Puno during his speech amidst the graduation ceremony.
i never thought of feeling what i have felt last year end graduation.i never knew that would be as special as it turned out to be.sa pagtawag ng pangalan ko kasabay ng pag-akyat sa entablado at buong galak na pagkuha ng diploma was the feeling that i am unable to put in words.really,great things are very much hard to define.four years of being a working student was never really easy.believe me, it will never be.and to think that i,myself did that,it was indeed amazing.really amazing.

on the other hand,the said event saddened me a lot.right after the graduation ceremony was the traditional group messaging of goodbyes.one thing that i never thought of doing so.but i can never assure myself of that.

everything that had happened for the last four years is PRICELESS...
priceless people...
undefinable experience..

kudos 4-3... we will see everyone around...

featured.

i don't have any featured friend recently, but there was a time that i featured only one... know him..

1. What's his/her full name?

► Jessie G. Villabrille

2. Does he or she has a boyfriend/girlfirend?

► i think so... i really don't know...

3. Do you know a secret about him/her?

► i figured out one of his secrets..and i did accept him for that..wholeheartedly...

4. Is this person older than you?

♥ no, i wish..

5. Has he/she ever cooked for you?

► not yet, never.. maybe in our future...

6. When & where was the last time you saw him/her?

► the last time?wait.. i think that was last monday.. yeah right.. we had our lunch together.. may mga alipores lang akong kasama.. haha

7. Do you have a nickname for each other?

► i don't know with him but i learned to call him jaiho.. haven't heard?

8. How many times do you talk to this person in a week?

► kung pede sumagot ng none or zero, that would describe the frequency of our conversation i guess..

9. Why is this person your number ONE?

► just for some reasons...

10. How long have you known this person?

► known?first year college

11. Have you ever been to the mall with this person?

► groupdate.. lague akong may alipores na kasama.. haha..

12. Have you ever watched movies at his/her place?

► not yet.. i have never been there.. siguro kapag namanhikan na ako at ang pamilya ko.. haha..

13. If you ever moved away would you miss this person? Why?

► surprisingly YES...

14. Have you ever given this person something?

► umum.. letters.. and i think i bought him a stuff toy.. the little one that reminds me of him the most...

15. Have you ever done something really stupid with this person?

► yeah.. and that's where it all started...

16. What is it that you love doing with this person?

► talk.. sana one time magawa rin namen yun..

17. Do you know everything about this person?

► no.. and i never wish to know everything about him..

18. Do you know this person's shoe size?

►5 yata??

19. Have you ever worn this person's clothes?

► not yet.. gusto mo ba?

20. Have you ever heard this person sing?

► yeah.. hilig nya kse yun.. kahit most of the time.. sablay...

21. Have you and this person ever had a fight that lasted more than 2 days?

► usual thing na sa amin ang hindi magkibuan for a week.. or a month.. but we do know that we are ok in spite of that..

22. Have you and this person went clubbing?

► not yet.. never in my plan..

23. Do you know what makes this person feel happy?

► outburst everything!

24. Do you and this person talk a lot?

► you wish..

25. Have you kicked this person?

► wala pa akong lakas ng loob para gawin yun..

26. Has this person yelled at you?

► yung bulong nya kse, minsan yelled na.. so how's that?

27. Do you love this person?

► i surely do..

28. Do you want to be with him/her forever?

► given a chance?i guess..

just a little girl - stephen speaks

She's always tryin' to be
some independent girl who is never in need
But 20 years in this town
she still relys on me to find her way around

because she's just a little girl - time isn't holding her down
she's just a little girl - she never needed a crown
she just wants somebody around
who won't laugh when she laughs too loud
she just wants somebody to see
she's just a little girl

when i think too much
the voices in my head are silenced by her touch
she hates bein alone
and babytalks to me when we're on the phone

because she's just a little girl - time isn't holding her down
she's just a little girl - she never needed a crown
she just wants somebody around
who won't laugh when she laughs too loud
she just wants somebody to see
she's just a little girl

in a world that moves too fast
she's afraid she'll never last
but if she holds the faith of a child
she'll be alright... she'll be alright

because she's just a little girl - time isn't holding her down
she's just a little girl - she never needed a crown
she just wants somebody around
who won't laugh when she laughs too loud
she just wants somebody to see
she's just a little girl

passion.

i just tried answering the survey.. look what i've got..

Writing

You're always dreaming up random scenes, making up characters etc. Its time you put them together and on paper!

complicated.

things are getting very much complicated.and i so hate it.