01.09.10
and so boredom is rolling again all over my body.with a green shirt,maong pants and a not height helping step-in which has been my usual get up during weekend shift,i found myself stuck in one of the stations scattered inside our office,waiting for my Saturday shift to be over.what a day it is,no tools available,downtime procedure,minimal number of customers calling and end up not being assisted at all.the system is temporarily off track and will soon right itself again,HOPEFULLY.anyhow,can you imagine how productive this day is?ampf.this is the life of what they call,pathetic mechanical servant.
okey,notepad pulled up with a cursor blinking.let's see how will it look like after the entire window has been filled with words gradually taking its place in the blank sheet right in front of me.will it be majestic?doubtful.i haven't visited my blogsite for quite sometime now due to new work schedule i recently had.expectantly,i'll be having writer'sblock this time.what are we going to expect from someone engulfed by boredom she cannot escape with as of this time?non sense thoughts.
what is she up lately?
2010 has finally took its place as the traditional relaxing view of fireworks brightened up the sky while bidding goodbye to year 2009 Thursday night prior to the last.the ever famous "happy new year" has become the word of mouth from that time until today,i guess.soon enough,the holiday season is finally over and everything is expected to be back to their original places..work,school etc..
NEW YEAR. ironically,for me,most things after all still hasn't changed yet.
it's not sinking in yet.what had settled in was the reality.the weeks that i had enjoyed for the last three months of 2009 is about to be over.one of the darkest periods of my life paved its way weeks ago.you know what the good thing is?i am coping.maybe because of the numerous negative things that bumped into me before that numbness or insensitivity is making its way to me.same old brand new story,like it wasn't what i thought and those should not be repeated.not again.like i grew tired listening to a car radio which is having trouble holding on to a station.sadly mistaken though it has always been a usual pattern.however,little by little i am getting back on track.i'm aware that the probability of the 'would' will soon be "could' then eventually it will turn out to be a 'should'.
i am giving time,time.anyway,we never had each other and fortunately or unfortunately,it wasn't as long as we had expected and hoped.i'm strong enough that i had learned how to weather challenges anyway.
moving forward, i know for sure that i'll win in this game by initially getting out of the system that i really cannot take lately.enough being a passive individual.leaving my work after 21 months of being an automaton is the next step that i am about to take right before summer months kick in.it's indeed true that no matter how long you have been with a certain thing,waking up one morning and realizing that you are no longer happy with what you are doing is possible.you crave and demand for a change which must be initiated no other than by yourself.as they say,sometimes,letting our moods serve as our compass helps us discover what we really want in life.acknowledge,then detach.look for things that will help us how to get through slumps.and this is what i have been thinking lately.
i don't know.i can't even say how long i have been writing this.maybe long enough that my weekend shift is over.
i am still clueless on what will happen in the next few days,weeks and months.nevertheless i'm dying to hope to be better in time.. :)
and so boredom is rolling again all over my body.with a green shirt,maong pants and a not height helping step-in which has been my usual get up during weekend shift,i found myself stuck in one of the stations scattered inside our office,waiting for my Saturday shift to be over.what a day it is,no tools available,downtime procedure,minimal number of customers calling and end up not being assisted at all.the system is temporarily off track and will soon right itself again,HOPEFULLY.anyhow,can you imagine how productive this day is?ampf.this is the life of what they call,pathetic mechanical servant.
okey,notepad pulled up with a cursor blinking.let's see how will it look like after the entire window has been filled with words gradually taking its place in the blank sheet right in front of me.will it be majestic?doubtful.i haven't visited my blogsite for quite sometime now due to new work schedule i recently had.expectantly,i'll be having writer'sblock this time.what are we going to expect from someone engulfed by boredom she cannot escape with as of this time?non sense thoughts.
what is she up lately?
2010 has finally took its place as the traditional relaxing view of fireworks brightened up the sky while bidding goodbye to year 2009 Thursday night prior to the last.the ever famous "happy new year" has become the word of mouth from that time until today,i guess.soon enough,the holiday season is finally over and everything is expected to be back to their original places..work,school etc..
NEW YEAR. ironically,for me,most things after all still hasn't changed yet.
it's not sinking in yet.what had settled in was the reality.the weeks that i had enjoyed for the last three months of 2009 is about to be over.one of the darkest periods of my life paved its way weeks ago.you know what the good thing is?i am coping.maybe because of the numerous negative things that bumped into me before that numbness or insensitivity is making its way to me.same old brand new story,like it wasn't what i thought and those should not be repeated.not again.like i grew tired listening to a car radio which is having trouble holding on to a station.sadly mistaken though it has always been a usual pattern.however,little by little i am getting back on track.i'm aware that the probability of the 'would' will soon be "could' then eventually it will turn out to be a 'should'.
i am giving time,time.anyway,we never had each other and fortunately or unfortunately,it wasn't as long as we had expected and hoped.i'm strong enough that i had learned how to weather challenges anyway.
moving forward, i know for sure that i'll win in this game by initially getting out of the system that i really cannot take lately.enough being a passive individual.leaving my work after 21 months of being an automaton is the next step that i am about to take right before summer months kick in.it's indeed true that no matter how long you have been with a certain thing,waking up one morning and realizing that you are no longer happy with what you are doing is possible.you crave and demand for a change which must be initiated no other than by yourself.as they say,sometimes,letting our moods serve as our compass helps us discover what we really want in life.acknowledge,then detach.look for things that will help us how to get through slumps.and this is what i have been thinking lately.
i don't know.i can't even say how long i have been writing this.maybe long enough that my weekend shift is over.
i am still clueless on what will happen in the next few days,weeks and months.nevertheless i'm dying to hope to be better in time.. :)
