Tuesday, March 31, 2009

i am a self-proclaimed writer and die hard photographer.

"that's me.so deal with it.you may give your opinion,but please,don't expect me to consider that.unless you count.so don't give a damn.mind your own.we all have our own ways of expression.mind yours."

Sunday, March 29, 2009

simply jessie.

my college life brought about numerous changes in my individuality.my block mates have been so influential to my development as a person and that's aside to my family. for the last four years that we have been working as one team in the campus of one state university in Manila,it is needless to say that those people whom i shared every detail of all my emotions,my experiences,opportunities,troubles and a lot more, are people whom i know played something significant and contributed as i take another step higher from the ground.


i decided to have this image attached here so i can further express and outburst all the words that want to get out of my mouth.his existence in my life is very much appreciated and was never forgotten 'til this time.lemme' share you "our" story,though we don't really have one...

part of college life,even high school probably is cramming.if you never experienced cramming during your student life,you're not probably not student then.OR.you are too diligent and too pabibo.hahaha.kidding aside.that's true.come on,open your eyes dear.going back,i never intended and never thought that cramming will be one of the reasons why i was able to understand the meaning of feelings and how it differs from emotion.

i was on my sophomore year when it all began.we were required to do communication campaign as a final requirement for one of my major subjects.our group was composed of around twenty people from our block.i was a little bit uneasy then given the fact that most of our members are really intellectuals."i admit,i was a little bit intimidated.i was never that good.sakto lang."we started all the preparations around january of 2007 i guess,and that ended end of april,same year.around three or four months,a lot of things and realizations happened.

a night prior to our first day of campaign we decided to have an overnight in meg's house *as always*.we were still on the process of preparing where in fact we were supposed to be prepared na and just having some relaxations that night.it was the other way around.we crammed.due to that,we slept around 3am then.(i was not that sanay pa during those times na magpuyat since hindi pa ako agent 'nun)it just so happened that jessie and i were magkatabi that time.but to tell you honestly though you might not believe me,no intentions.yun lang yung maganda sa klase namen,walang taluhan.i was lying between venice and jessie that time.he was actually playing with my mobile when i have fallen asleep.sobrang pagod na rin siguro.it was not the first time that our group had an overnight.that's a usual thing to us whenever it's needed.but that night differed,and that brought changes.

i was awakened and he was embracing me.IT WAS UNCONSCIOUS.MAY I REPEAT,he hugged me unconsciuosly.initially,i've realized that i can love this person.and with that in mind,i didn't remove his arms surrounding me.i felt secured.loved.and so i slept again.i never knew that the feeling will last.and it did.

we finally woke up and he was teasing me na ako daw yung nangaakap 'pag tulog.i was like,"duh?who the hell was talking?"so i teased him back.however it didn't end there.i immediately shared this scenario with my friend and she was like "oh my god!" that i almost slap her cause she was so ingay.jessie was not that far from us 'nun.hahaha...and so it all started there.

one awful day, (lemme have it described it awful 'cause it really was) that was our debate day.i forgot what topic was given to me 'cause i never wanted to remember what happened during that day.it's just that,march 04,2007 became a part of the story i am claiming ours..napahiya ako during my speech,please don't ask me why cause i forgot as well,i intentionally did.due to embarassment,i cried to kua dan (my kua at school) right after it... and jessie came along asking why...when he was gone,i opened up to dan that jessie was my crush...sooo CHILDISH no?mas immature pa ako that time and i was really open book.anyway, i really didn't expect na ilalaglag ako ni dan..as in regret to the highest level ako that time..he called jessie,and shouted "jessie!crush ka nito!" and jessie was like "talaga?" - that started the ilangan.uneasy feeling whenever he was around and feelings that developed in deeper one...

basically that's how it started.and the sad thing about that,the feeling was never mutual.i cried a lot due to his insensitivity.that's the main point of it,he's insensitivity that made most of my days miserable.

there are things that science can never explain and there are things that words can never be enough to express.my feelings towards him is one great example.but it's one thing that i am very certain and he's one person that i,myself can never describe.

the airing of "princess hours" corrupted my mind as well.but let's not dwell on that.one revelation surprised me one morning.that was such heartbreaking and i was full of panghihinayang.that weakened me.i cried.a lot.I CRIED A LOT, i admit.


days passed and i just found myself accepting all that happened.i accepted him for who he is.and that's a fact that i think will remain as it is.

here are some of the messages that i'll never ever delete on my mobile phone:


"i wont let this very speacial day passed without saying how lucky i am to be part of your life.. i am so lucky for i was appreciated by you genuinely.. THANKS FOR THIS DAY! thanks tou you!"
-received:11:16:23pm of 09.01.08

"alam ko nagagalit ka!hehe..gagalitin sana kita, amf, i'll try to greet you sana sa pinakahuling minuto ng araw na 'to.. SANA MAKATRABAHO PA KITA SA LABAS..."


"salamat.. sana maging mabuti pa tayong magkaibigan sa pasukan... sori talaga.. "

"thank you for letting me feel my significance.. tnx also for the appreciation and sori for being so evil...hahaha...i wud just like to use the worst word that would describe me..I LOVE YOU and i treasure you..."
-received:holyweek last 2007

"thanks for treasuring me..hope to have more fruitful and sumptuous friendship with you this coming year.. you are a great woman osang..."
-received:december of 2007



just like these messages, his place in me will never be replaced by somebody.we never had that kind of relationship but we shared something that even the richest person on earth can never buy.. we are about to finally seperate ways as we leave PUP... i am uncertain of everything about us... and i am afraid that it will remain in its uncertainty...i hope it's not...

status quo - one of my fears.

"Breast cyst formation is an unpleasant and sometimes painful occurrence in some women, it can however be remedied through proper diagnosis. The cyst may arise due to a variety of reasons, and one of them called fibrocystic breast disease has been identified as the most common cause of breast cysts. And the physical manifestations of this illness are the formation of fluid filled masses that are encysted in lumps that can be felt through the skin, breast cyst can affect one or both the breast with telltale lumps that are recurrent and can cause pain, the lumps being tender and recurrent, this flare-ups or the appearance of the lumps usually happen around the time of menstruation in this illness. The occurrence of breast cyst formation is also linked to the onset of breast cancer but at the same time breast cancer in itself cannot and should not be ruled except in the light of professional diagnosis from a competent medical practitioner. Breast cancer can only be completely ruled out in cases where the lumps have movement and are sore, because in the vast majority of cases of breast cancer, it is very unlikely that the lump will be movable and vary in size with the monthly menstrual cycle- most cancerous tissue is often painless, is not motile or is totally immovable and does not show fluctuations in size with the menstrual cycle. Discoloration of skin and a difference in the nipple size and shape are other warning signs for breast cancer and professional advice must be taken at the earliest, which might lead to a biopsy and diagnosis and subsequent treatment. " (PMS), which happens somewhere around middle age in all women, the lumps formed have some movement within the breast and are usually painful or tender to the touch, and can bring on soreness and stiffness to the breast. The onset of breast cysts in women is mostly in middle age around and about the ages of thirty and fifty. The medical diagnosis is not - http://www.herbs2000.com/disorders/breast_cysts.htm

it's been almost two years.way back in November of 2007 i discovered that i have one.initial reaction?i cried.i really don't have the idea on why i did.tears just ran over my cheeks.i immediately texted one of my closest peer.i was worried.i was bothered.i questioned.i researched some facts regarding such illness.until i noticed that almost two years had passed and nothing has changed until...

this morning,or should i say recently,this cyst of mine is making papampam.literally making papansin to me.i am always awakened by the pain it gives.-makirot-.i used to feel that before,but it's deteriorating i guess.until this point in time,we are clueless if this is malignant or just benign.i honestly don't have any interest to know if one is which.i maybe strong,but i am fearing that inside of me.what if it's malignant?i haven't been admitted for the last 21 years.i have never feel injection thru my veins,and never did i have dextrose as well.i never appreciated the environment in a hospital.dull.malungkot.sabi ko sa friend ko,if she wants to feel sorrow,go ahead and have a stay in one hospital.this is a given fact,isn't not?

but i guess,this is something that i really cannot escape from.after a lot of people advised me to see and seek some medical explanation for this one,i finally decided to go and see an obgyne.but not now.the following week i guess.i know minor operation or intense medication might follow,but that's definitely better than death i guess,right?

and so i asked my mom to accompany me after payday and see our ob then.hope it's not for operation *crossed fingers*...cause this status quo is one of my fears..

Saturday, March 28, 2009

(sort of critique)how did you find *you've chaged my life?*

"mai!read your blog.with regards to your review with that film of loydi and sarah.admittedly, the film is indeed mushy.i almost got disappointed the last time i've watched that.but i know,there's much at the end.that's one thing common with film writers.twist.twist.twist.and so i gave a damn try to check it.i just found it entertaining.and i found myself laughing at the corny scripts.the film was not that heavy.a light touch was applied to it, i must say.it's not that good,not that bad.enough to entertain viewers.that's unique in the sense that it's not like other films which will give you a hard time understanding or might make you feel sorrow.and that's the thing that i loved with that movie.but hey!know that it's your perception.i am not trying to question it ha?share share lang."- roxie

here's the exact words on what i have commented to my friend's blog regarding her review on JLC and SG's you changed my life.i was just about to have her blog read,but i then found myself posting comment in it.

that film was really mushy to the extent that i almost get out of the movie house since that film sucks at the beginning of it.i repeat,at the beginning.the personalized message alert tone of mobile phones never put in silent mode made it really nakakaumay,i must really say.laida's portrayed character, *one played by sarah, for the sake of those who don't know* specifically her stupidity made my eyes roll.really.specially when she was about to resign.so kadiri.so tanga talaga nung character na binuo ni writer for her.but i suppose that was intentional.something that the writer might be fully aware of.if you could think,other scenarios,corny scenarios are those that we oftenly see on the real world.what the writer did was to let the viewers see it in the big screen and let the viewers see how awful is that.(just an assumption).but i should say that the love story of typical filipina employee and a RK,owner of one big compmany is very much idealistic.REALLY IDEALISTIC.

mababaw lang yung pagkakadevelop ng film.if you'll compare it with hollywood films,that is completely different.the story and the portrayal of the character, they are all cute.it was indeed design to entertain viewers.*entertain in its layman's description*

if there is one thing i must criticize with the film, that will be the poster alone.the one with JLC holding baloons and SG hugging him.SO M-U-S-H-Y and it seems that they didn't have some brainstorming about it.haha.i am being so mean.

JLC as the lead male star of that film is also one of the reasons why i am completely decided to have that film viewed.not to mention that i was also able to watch the first one - very special love.i am a big fan of JLC.i must admit that.


over all, STORY WISE, the film was cute.

new sched.*sigh*

my fave day ended with a phone call earlier.last Tuesday i asked our PC to have my name removed from the agents who are on permanent schedule.i found it hard kase.during Mondays and Fridays my schedule was 9:00 to 6:00 manila time.and during Tuesdays to thursdays, it will be 12:00mn ti 9:00am.my teammates are not around during those times yet.their schedule is 2:00 to 11:00 am manila time for the whole week.i take my auxes alone while they have it together.the demand of the new system made it a lot harder for me,less number of floor supports available and less tc as well aside from the father figure team captain that i really love the most - tc shq...

with those in consideration,and less demands in academe,i decided to finally changed my schedule.maybe for some changes that i am craving too.i hate a routinary life.sssssssssoooooo hate that.

the moment i hung up the phone,thoughts ran over my empty head.shall i take it as an advantage,or something that i might repent at the end?i am not pessimist nor optimist.sakto lang sabi nga ng friend ko before.that depends.for now,i am the one who requested for that so i guess i might as well enjoy the new schedule then.

no repent.*hopefully*

comments.comments.comments.thanks!

*here are some of the comments i have in my fs account that i really appreciate the most.try reading some.no opinions needed.

luigene

01/31/2009 6:12 am


* hi roxanne, i just found time to respond on your comment, pasensya na, alam ko naman naiintindihan mo ang sched natin sa mga panahong to.:)

salamat sa comment. yep, i'm happy, sana ganun ka rin..

tingin ko naman di pa huli ang lahat, pwede pa natin makilala ang isa't isa.. salamat sa pagkokonsidera sakin bilang kakila-kilalang tao, hehe.. ikaw din sa'kin.:)

ingat ka lagi and always find time to unwind...

good luck sa'tin lahat!


r e i
01/24/2009 9:35 pm


* haha!ang harte harte ng profile ng "childish" hindi "childlike"..haha!teka ang harte harte na ang lande lande pa..

hahahahahahahaha!bakit si churva lang ang friend mo?ikaw ha, nalingat lang ako nag kaunti..",)


nwei, just dropd by para kamustahin ka..alam kong nahihirapan ka na din tulad ko, i nearly wanna give up..sobrang lapit na.pero iniisip ko, nakaya o nga ng kung ilang buwan, ngaung ilang araw na lang ngaun pa ba ako susuko?" kaso it's very very hard and tiring na..

pero everytime i think of wat wud happen nxt?auq..hindi ako susuko..(maharte din ako..)

so far, INSPIRING BA?pwd nko maging writer?haha!

o xa, nangamusta lang ako, napakwento tuly ako..

i miss you..yngat lagi..basta walang susuko..kaya natin to..have faith..Godbless!",)


sherryl joy
01/05/2009 11:54 pm


* roxanne!!!
hahaha!!!
la lang!!
namimiss na xe talaga kita eh!!!
yun lang!


Jamie
01/04/2009 7:39 pm


* omg, xanne, i miss you so much! aww, yeah i'll text you soonest alright? missmissmissmissmiss you. you stay safe okay? stay away from bad people. they're bad. hahahaha.


Mac
12/31/2008 6:12 pm


* o eto na...sapilitan na comment! hahaha! to my cutest agent (maliit nga lang)..hahaha...thanks for being so hardworking and pasaway...haha....seriously, it's been fun working with you guys! it's been a blast! see you on the flipside! stay irie!



Pola
12/12/2008 12:06 am


* Roxie!!! :))

Roxie-the nickname that I gave her when I first called her to make yaya ata kumain. Since she's one of the newbies of our batch, I invited her to go along with us. I think she likes to be called roxie naman (that explains her ID nick)sosyal ryt? hahaha..first impression? naaahh..typical girl from pasig LOL. remember ko pa yung color ng damit niya when i first saw her walked into the room. WHITE blouse w/ white head band. I must confess dear, pero kala ko tlg lovers keo ni jesse. Only to find out that jesse is may hasang pala LOL . Nwz, she's kinda suplada @ first but when I get to know her she's cool pala. Smile lang jan, rox. She's sensitive. A woman with "THAT" sensitivity is something that most (if not all) guys would appreciate. I may be wrong but she's one of the many girls I know who falls easily in love. She's really blunt w/ her feelings towards GUYS prospect and that's one of the attitudes that i liked about her (kaya umiiyak LOL) seriously rox, Glad we met! =)


andy
12/10/2008 10:53 pm


* ROXANNE BAUTISTA..
due to your demand, here's your comment..
hmm, what can i say?
basta avail/aux asahan magkachikahan kami.
dadayo pa ko sa station nila para manggulo..
andun crushes e, pakyut lang ng bonggang bongga..
and of course, "tuta" ang topiko,.
hehe! kami lang nakakintindi nun..jargon jargon..

at lagi kong linya,
"BAUTISTA, AUTO IN!"
tas mag-aaux2 para chumika..
parehas pa kami nililigawan ng command,
laging tumatawag sa avaya. ehe!

haai.. yun muna.
la pa ko tulog..
lagi mo lang ako i-hi kay kuya joni na mabango..
lantod ko talaga..

i know what you're thinking,,
na pwede ka na mag-resign sa telus
dahil nagawan na kita ng testi. *LOL*

stay pretty like me roxanne bautista..
salamat sa pagsabing cute ako.
lam na naman nating lahat yan.
hehe! GB..


Thea Rema Ria
12/07/2008 6:55 pm


* okey, sapilitan ito kaya kailangang maganda...

Si Roxanne...
Maganda
Mabait
Matalino
Malambing
Maalalahanin

Alam mo.. almost perfect na rin ang babaeng to eh..
Childish, child like...
Madaling patawanin, masayang kasama...
Nakakaiyak.. noong una, kinakatakutan ko talaga siya, di ko naaappreciate yung ganda niya pero nung makilala ko na siya, nung halos maging transparent na siya sa akin saka ko lang nasabing MAGANDA NGA SI XANE. walang katulad.

Immature daw siya?
May immature bang palaging kapakanan ng mahahalagang tao sa kanya ang iniisip?
Ewan ko lang, baka mababaw ang definition nila ng maturity, kasing babaw nila... hahahaha!!! Tamaan na tatamaan!!!

Ah basta, di siya yung easy to get... maswerte guy na makakakita ng tunay niyang ganda...


kate
09/01/2008 12:27 am


* tol..

musta pinakamaganda kong kaibigan pro pinakatanga yata.. hahaha!!!!

api burdei day..!!!

hmp.. ayoko tlga pag nakikita kitang umiiyak..

ang ganda ganda mo para iyakan ang usang taong tooooot...!!! (sensored!!)
hahaha!!

joke lng.. e db nga pag burden, alisin n dapat sa mga dalahin.. sa liit mong yan, di mo kakayaning dalhin ng sabay sabay..!!


saka dapat binabayaran k nia ng isang libo tuwing nagkikita kayo.. e luging lugi ang beauty mo day.. hahaha!!

nwei, tama na ang laitan time.. basta mahal na mahal kita xan.. (tibo??!!) dito lang ako lagi para sau.. dito lang kmi..

bilog ang mundo, nasa ilalim man tayo ngaun tol, sa susunod na panahon, its our time to shine naman..

tandaan..

NO MAN DESERVES A WOMAN'S TEAR..

Lovelots..!!!

Hapi burdei ulet!!


Wanda
08/31/2008 4:29 am


* Xanne,Happy Birthday
maaga ng isang araw kasi baka tamarin na ko magnet bukas..
hope maging masaya ka sa birthday mo na lagi mo na lang binabanggit,hehe..
wish you more blessings at mawalan ka naman ng problema..
keep smiling =)
Happy Birthday ulet
your such a blessing..


Thea Rema Ria
08/30/2008 9:17 pm

* more more sa pagbati. you know how much i appreciate yon kahit na madalas kang topakin, madalas kang mag assume...madalas magtaray at mag isip bata...ikaw yon eh...may magagawa ba kami? hehehe...birong totoo teh...
isa kang true blooded sadista at masokista! (imbentor din ako ng term eh..)
generous...
malambing...
mababaw in the sense na madaling pasayahin at paiyakin...MY MONALISA...
matalino...
napaka responsable waglang totoyoin..
pasweet na epal...
maalalahanin...
(nilulubos ko na...minsan ko lang to gagawin...next year hindi na...)
alam mo yon...obra ng buhay...
maraming problema tong babaent to eh,pero hanga lang ako di siya sumusuko...iyakin nga lang...
HAPPY BERDEY UNGET...
wala akong pera eh...di rin ako kasing creative mo para maghanda ng surprises...
may isang pangako lang ako...alam mo na yon...


wana mari
02/14/2008 4:42 am


* Xanne,
Happy Puso Day!!!
Xenxa na at hindi kita nakausap ngayon ha.
Mejo madami kasi akong iniisip eh at tsaka parang marami kang ginagawa.
alam mo nasabi ko nanaman lahat ng gusto kong sabihin eh.
Basta lagi mo lang tatandaan na andito lang ako, handa kang damayan at makinig sa anumang kabaliwan mo at kalungkutan mo kahit tungkol pa iyon kay jessie.
hindi porket iniwan ka ng isa eh nawala na kaming lahat.
marami pa kaming kaibigan mo.
marami pa kaming nagmamahal sa iyo.
wag mo iyan kakalimutan.
i-approach mo lang ako at hindi ako mag-aatubiling maglaan ng oras sa iyo.
hanggang dito na lang, gumagawa pa ako sa org com eh.
hehehe.
love you!!!!
excited na akong ma-meet si jomar!!!


Thea Rema Ria
01/19/2008 11:21 pm


* hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit ko kailangang gawin to...hahaha!!! dogmatic lang talaga si Xanne...hehehe!!! JOKE!! kahit totoo...woooo...

ahaayy.. hindi way ko na siguro to para i-express kung gaano ko naaapprecite ang lukaret na si xanne...

BABALA!
ANG SUSUNOD NIYONG MABABASA AY PAWANG PAMBOBOLA LAMANG.



MANIWALA TANGA!



Talent ni Xanne ang pagtatampo. Siya yung batang ewan ko kung sweet..pero sige na nga... maalalahanin yan eh...parang nanay ko na palagi akong pinipilit kumain tuwing tanghali para hindi magutom... nakakatouch lang na may taong palaging nag- aalala para sa akin..

mataray.. nasabi ko na to pero siya yung makulit na isip bata ba o retarded basta mga banat nito ay naku! ang sakit sa tiyan! VERY AMUSING!!! sows!
Nagpapanggap din siya na tanga minsan..kahit hindi... naku wag kayong maniniwalang tanga yan,,,, nagpapaka-humble lang...hahahaha!!!

Isa siya sa mga taong hinahangaan ko sa room.. maabilidad na babae at sobra ang malasakit sa pamilya...


borjski
12/11/2007 5:50 pm

* * * hello..ehem.. bossing.. nakilala ko to sa isang prestigious NGO, which is CEAE, na kung saan ang mga matitikas na volunteer students from RTU and PUP ay pinag sanib-pwersa to protect and save the environment in our simple but a very useful move..
mabaet to, pretty, ahm..aun.. sana wag ka magbgo..
hmm..aun..goodluck and more power..
ingatz..
blessed be..


sherryl joy
12/04/2007 4:26 am


*Roxanne bAutista... Hmmn..hirap naman mag-isip ng comment.. well yan si roxanne, were friends since the start of the semester back in first year.. masasabi kong matagal na din ang friendship namin!! Masaya ako dahil nakilala ko siya!! she's pretty and witty wench!! (cnungaling ako!!) just kidding, i admire you most of the time lalo na pag tungkol sa hardships mo sa buhay ang pag-uusapan.. you're a strong gal,, may times na gusto ko ding maging matatag katulad mo!! hayy roxanne kung alam mo lang i wish i could turn back those times na were close as in open..haha getz? alam ko hindi na pwede yun pero sana maging close pa tau!! just always remember na dito lang kme, ako para sau..To have a good friend is one of the highest delights in life; to be a good friend is one of the noblest and most difficult undertakings.godbless always...

Thea Rema Ria
06/08/2007 4:53 am


* Si XANNE.. aawardan ko ng- PINAKANATATANGING KAIBIGAN AWARD!!!!!


prince arvy
05/28/2007 6:39 am

* hi oxaneygurl,, thank u or making me a fiend.. i really apprex8 u,, hope Gd will be blessing u more... love u xane...


Shinichi
05/14/2007 6:13 pm


* yo
its been long
but let's make it short
haha really SHORT

i mean this..

let's see...

roxanne..

the world is SMALL...

that's why i met you right?

you can make SMALL things appear huge...

yeah pretty gargantuan..

that means this SMALL girl is not your typical grown-up... she is HUGE!!!!


yeah..


you see she is tough... really tough..

but one more peek and you'd see the marshmallow inside of her.. her heart might be coated with titanium but her its core is pure white delicious marshmallow.... sprinkle in top of one scoop of ice cream. serve in cones for two. set aside. wait im straying again. heading back...

roxanne is simply rox. yup. rox rocks!!!

hahaha rox will rock your world...


definitely..



it is now safe to turn off your computer...



Thea Rema Ria
05/05/2007 3:41 am


* ....ginulo nito ang nananahimik kong mundo
wala sa hinagap kong makikilala ang isang babaeng SOBRANG..
LOUD!
KULET!
TAPANG!
SIPAG!
TALINO....
wala akong masabi eh...
mataray pero yung nasa lugar..
Wala sa hinagap ko pero nangyari...
AT NAGPAPASALAMAT AKO..
marami akong natutunan... marami akong napuntahan...
siya yung taong kahit sobrang inuulan na ng problema AJA pa rin... hindi siya sumusuko.... lumalaban siya...
lagi akong napapahalakhak sa kakulitan at kakikayan nito... ang sarap!
Karindi lang kasi ang alam niya lang atang word eh JESSIE! hindi ko lang alam kung nung iluwal to ng nanay niya, imbes na UHA eh, JESSIE ang sinabi niya?....kapagod...
Matigas pa nga ulo nito, pero yun yon eh... natutuwa ako sa pagiging totoo niya... napaka vocal niya....
magiging succesful to someday...


aRJay
05/02/2007 5:35 am


* hi xane,,,
you asked for this a couple of
months or weeks ago,,,
hmmmm,,,
what can i say?
xane is someone i admire alot,,,
ndi matangkad, pero maganda,,,
ndi ko gaano nakakausap pero
there's something about her na sobrang
naaapreciate ko,,, that's her being what she
truly is,,,
katulad ng lagi kong sinasabi sa'yo,,,
look for someone who really deserves that something in you which is more valuable than your pretty face,,, heheh

thanks for everything n i'm looking forward to spending more happy times with all of you,,,

stay sweet friend,,,


Venice Anne
04/28/2007 11:32 pm


* roxanne....

a sweet friend of mine. i am thankful for having her as one of my true friends in coc. for just a very little span of time, i discovered a lot about her.... and that made me admire her more. she's a friend who is always willing to share everything that she has. i appreciate roxanne for being who she really is.. i actually want to spend more time with her.. 2 talk with her... and eventhough i'm a bit different among her friends, still, she keeps her company with me... i just dont know when it did start.. but i know, roxanne will be loved, will be protected, will be admired... because roxanne deserves either... and having her as a part of my seasons will remain to be remembered...



xanne, thanks for being natural... thanks for trusting me... i meaN, thank you for doing so... i found a true friend in you... and i am really blessed... i hope to catch up a conversation with you again... thanks friend.. ur voice is heard xanne.. i'm here to listen.. and so


♥♫ DeNvEr♫♥
04/23/2007 11:07 am


* roxane?? small but definitely terrible!! un lng.. hehehe.. e2 p.. pasweet.. makulit.. maingay.. but im telling u, npaka responsible ni2.. as in 4 thumbs up!(kasama n ung thumbs sa paa!).. d q p xa intensely close peo super maaasahan 2ng taong 2.. xane, sana mas maging closep tau noh?? in the near fu2re... cge unlng poh muna.. an2kn q eh.. nga pala, ung crush moh ha.... wag maxadong in luv.. hehehe.. nbbliw k n kc eh, cge k sa loob ng mandaluyong 2loy moh nyan.. tc


Josh
04/02/2007 1:25 am

* well, what can I say about roxanne..

si roxanne, nakilala ko yan ngayong college na. laging maaga yan kung pumasok. bihira ko lang syang makikitang late sa school. naalala ko, maaga rin ako nun.. dun ko lang sya nasimaulang makausap ng matagal.

saka si roxanne, sa lahat ng groupings lagi ko yan kasama. bihira lang yung hindi ko sya kagrupo. ewan ko ba.. basta lagi kaming mgakagrupo. hindi ko malilimutan yung gumawa kami ng video presentation nung first year palang kami.. grabe ang hirap nun at madami kaming pinagdaanan. marami ding mga first time at syempre bonding moments.

si roxanne maasahan to. kapag may pinagawa ka asahan mo na matatapos agad ng maayos. pagpatuloy mo lang yan ah!

saka magandang babae rin to, kaya lang kulang lang sa height. hehehe. pero ayos lang yan, it doesn't matter. nadadala naman sa mataas na takong eh.

saka mahilig din tong kumain! hehehe.

sige till here nalang. 3rd year na tayo.. God speed.

Alexces Megan
03/31/2007 6:35 am

* if i am only allowed to have one adjective to describe roxanne...well i guess it will be undoubtedly and obviously be "beautiful"...(ayan lumalaki na ulo ni roxanne! hehe...peace...)...pramis...mganda talaga c xanne...kita naman db? but im not talking about external beauty but internal beauty as well...(ampf...n_n)

nung una talaga di ko ineexpect na magiging close kami ng babaeng to...ang layo naman kasi ng mga mundo namin...kanya kanyang barkada and kanya kanyang trip sa buhay..and then...naging hulog ng langit ang FPOP (shame!n_n)...naging tulay ang "No AIDS Limit" para mas makilala ko pa siya....

so far...i find her very welcoming...sobra...di ka maiilang sa kaniya kc approachable talaga xa...may times nga lng na mataray pro cge na...carry na...hehe...no dull moments with this girl...pramis!!! sobrang bilib pa nga q dito kc nasabi niya__(private message)__, basta yun! alam niya na un! n_n

anyweis...(continuation)

here are the top 5 things na nakakapagpaalala sakin kay xanne....

5. gateway foodcourt...kfc...chicken steak? hehe....
4. tuwing naaalala q c crush naaalala q din xa....(alam mo na kung bkt xanne....hehe...n_n)
3. greenwich (hala bkt puro fast fud chain? hehe...)
2. princess hours...if we fall in love...nacorrupt ng koreanovela nato ang utak ni xanne! n_n
1. xempre naman...VICTIMS OF LOVE...wuhoo!!...tatak ni roxanne yan eh...ngaun q nga lng naapreciate ung song dahil sa kaniya eh...

well ayun...sobrang grateful aq dahil inaaccept aq ng babaeng to sa buhay niya...sana naman kahit tapos na ang campaign namen ay walang magbago...basta...minsan ka lang mkkhanap ng babae n gaya ni xanne...a friend worth keeping talaga...n_n


☺♥dHeSe♥☺
03/12/2007 12:12 am


* c xanne...ai nku...
grabehan tong girl na to...
hehehe over mainlove...
haii kung pde lng iuntog ung ulo nito
para lng matauhan...
gnawa ko na...
hahahaha joke lng...
well frend q to 4 2 yirs na din...
kulit 4 life...
haha...preo matalino as in...
ELIBS nga aq d2 eh..
wla lng...
tnx pla 4 sharing ur secrets....
thankful aq kc khit wla nq sa inyo..
my twala ka prin skin...
eun..bsta tandaan mo..
WAG MXDONG MGING OUTSPOKEN...
minsan kc nppasma ka...
bsta d2 lng aq 4 you..
txt lng...eun..

ingats lague...
take care of your heart...
hrap msaktan...
love yah...


Marvin
09/04/2006 6:57 pm

* yan si roxanne small but terrible, at sympre mabait din yang kaibigan for sure makakasundo m yan, nakilla ko yan sa trabaho magaling yang katrabaho maganda pa at wla akong masabi, pero minsan tanga nga lang dahil madaling mainlab ka kahit first time plang nyang nkita, tanga nga, hehehehe.....
pero sa kbila non, masaya akong kasama sya.. at now malapit na kaming maendo, nalulungkot man ako masya na rin ako dahil may isang rox ang dumaan sa buhay ko.. hay..sana hindi mo ko makalimutan, pero bago ang lahat testi ko muna,.. hehehe...cge hanggand dito nalang... hehehhe...


jenny
03/31/2005 5:25 pm


* Xane! Asawa ng best koh! hehehe! ei,
don't lose hope to all the problems
that you are facing... tandaan mo ito --
"MAY KATAPUSAN ANG LAHAT" kaya ngumiti
ka lang! pag kelangan mo koh... go! wag
mahiya... I'l try my best para
matulungan ka! :p mmm... wala na kong
masabi... para sa kaalaman ng lahat...
si Xane ay isang very good friend...
sayang nga lang at ngayong 4th year
lang kami nagkaroon ng time para
makilala ang isa't isa at maging
close... alagaan mo health mo ah! pray
ka lang lagi kay God... trust him,
tutulungan niya tayo... gagraduate na
tayo pero sana walang limutan huh?!
makalimot pangit! harharhar... hinding
hindi kita makakalimutan kasi you're
one of the people I really trust... di
bah?! oo kaya! hehehe... 'wag mo
masyadong problemahin lovelife ha!
tsktsktsk... there's a right guy for
you! sigurado! tingin ka sa likod mo!
hehehe... tumingin ka siguro...
(pinapatawa lang kita) SMILE! Friend,
ingat sa college ha... sna mktpos
tayong lahat... para masaya! Tsige...



SirMO
12/27/2004 12:30 am


* >Takip tenga kong sinasambit n medyo
maingay i2ng babaeng i2. Dagdag pa
nito'y ang kanyang bses ay sadyang
napakatinis. Ngunit ang 22o, sakling
magkahiwa2lay n kmi ay ang mga bgay
n i2 ang hindi ko mali2mot at laging
mami2s

>Roxy is such a good pal, close ko cia
lalo n noong 1st yr n halos magkatabi
kmi. Nakatu2wa talaga ciang ksma.

>tlagang nalungkot ako ng malipat ito ng
section ksai medyo nalayo cia smin.
Pero akla ko lng un, bukod s nging
msaya cia s mga bago niang friends ay
lalo ko ciang nakila2.

>matatag i2ng girl na 2 at d basta basta
sumusuko s mg problems. Matalino at
tlgang napakasipg ni2 taong 2. Sa
katunayan ay kopyahan i2 ng bayan s
lhat ng assignment.

>Bago malimutng sbihin. ang roxy i2 ay
isang taong biniyayaan ng kakyutan and
I really like her cute little brown eyes...

>>sana makita ka n ng la2king pra tlga
s u <<...........



vlad
12/20/2004 9:55 pm


* who would ever think that this girl will
still grow as tall as she is now???!!!

eventhough she is cute, she still rocks!!!

kind
thoughtful
caring?!
cheerful
pretty
fashionista
generous

all these wonderful things will make u
think that this girl will surely be the type
of friend that you want to have...

she has been my classmate and friend
since first year... we were even
matched before coz she's thinkin' that i
had a crush on her which is not true....
hehehehe

i hope that everything is going fine with
you my friend...

take care...

im still cuter than yooooo...

dont you ever think again that i had a
crush on you...

the truth will set us free....

MABUHAY SI ROXY!!!



LoRnA LiBaNaN
12/17/2004 12:55 pm


* c xanne? mabait na matalino na
masipag na maganda na kahit maliit ay
may pagkamaingay pero_oks lang un,
d naman masyado Noh?!! at saka
friendly siyang tlga. mahal na mahal nito
c _ _ _. ang bez niya ay c Ian Dean na
taga-ArelllanU!!! hehehe... basta c
xanne, mabait tlga yan at saka
marunong makisama.no joke. magaling
kUmanta at sumayaw...dba roxannE? at
siya ung nakilala kong pinaka_maayos
sa lahat ng gamit... mahilig din 'tong
magsalamin, dala_dalawa pa ang
ginagamit. Naks!wala kau dun! minsan
may pagkamaharot, kuliiiiiittt!!!! pero
masasabi kong NapakACpag nitong
mag-aral at magaling na lider sa
FiliPinO,El Fili. ops! wg la2ki ang ulo...
un lang... basta always take care... and
il olweiz be around.... dont 4get 2 pray
olweiz...luv u...


Fe¡.[03]
10/24/2004 3:36 am


* oi testi ko po??? ayan, meron na me
sau kaya gawan mo rin me ha?!cnu ba
2??c roxanne???naku, sa tagal ng
fwenship namin..medyo kilala ko na
siya...bukod sa pareho kaming maliit,
minsan napagkakamalan yang suplada
pero guyz, todo bait yan PROMISE!! di
yan nang-iiwan sa ere, she's one of the
best, bestfriend I had...thankz po sa
lahat!sana minsan,magkasama uli
tau...I really miz yah...
LOVE YAH!!! - mwahhhh -


Pm Ederish
10/06/2004 12:28 am


* Si Roxy...we were classmate from 1st-
2nd year. She's one of my friends now.
What can I say about her?...She's a
good friend, a true friend! She never get
tired listening to my stories, jokes and
problems. Its also fun to be with her.
Medyo makulit! About love, sa palagay
ko grabe sya kung ma-inlove. Di sya
napapagod!
Hope she'll never change. Im really
thankful to have her as one of my
treasures!


fave day.tiring day.

at exactly 6:03am, I'm finally logged out.saying goodbye again to the manipulated world of the company i am currently working in.*bitterness is rolling again in my body.*this is my fave day.and i thank god, at last it's Saturday.pretension will be out of my way again.

after completely logging off and cleaning my station, i chatted with friends for a while.exchanged silly jokes over.talked about some updates w/c we call *chismax* in Tagalog.laughed.and questions remained questions for a while.bye for now.see you next hell week again.

7:21 i am out of that fake environment.i am on my normal life.again.hurray!passed 8am i got home.talked with my bro for a while and found myself asleep without changing clothes.i set my alarm at around 12noon.may pupuntahan kasi ako.kami pala ng mga kaibigan ko.another normal bonding day.told you, i heart Saturday.

around 12:15 i woke up.eat.changed clothes to pambahay one.got online.listened to "hearted" musics.rested for a while.took a bath.around 3pm, i left.*ooops, i forgot to say, i talked with my pets for a while, missed 'em*

originally,2pm ang usapan.of course,no longer new,i am late.but surprisingly,i was not the last one to arrive.kudos for me!haha.and since the Nigerian friend of mine waited for me not so long,my treat!happy birthday inaanak.

i was wearing white shorts and my fave blouse *since it's my fave day,haha,nagkataon lang* and we decided to walk from crossing to reliance, malapit lang kase.we were chatting when one vendor suddenly rap in front of us.his rap goes like this "...babaeng nasa gitna, mahal kita,matagal na kitang nakikita pero di mo ako sinasagot..." i dunno if i'll laugh or i'll fear that time.. we headed along...

almost 5:00, we arrived at paragon plaza at reliance along EDSA.main agenda-bisitahin si sir ante *our boss during our internship at this radio station*we have given him token of appreciation.what could it be?balato nyo na samen 'yon.confi kase.hahaha.we headed to sm ortigas after.theresa was still on quest of looking for a piggy bank.someone she can bring along.talk with during travel and at night as well.haha.she's weird at times.peace soner.she's weird for people who doesnt hell know her at all.we went to TOY KINGDOM.done some foolish things.imitated some strollers.laughed.behaved when they were about to see us.hahaha.that's how we trip people.on the other hand, quite sad,wasnt able to see memems there.bakit walang pusang stuff toy?bakit tigre meron?anyway,she bought 2,one for her,one for her *bestfriend/boyfriend*.another peace for you soner.

after that,we went to power books.nakaugalian na.if jollibee fernandos is our wash room,bookstores are our small lib.we do some private reading.haha.we were able to see one book from sherry argov titled "why men love bitches".i'll do one blog for that one if i'll be able to see some excerpt from net.too expensive eh,almost eight hundred bucks.i guess that's a nice book kse.it goes with the prize surething.

we decided to eat first before strolling again.we decided to have our merienda at goldilocks.we ordered lasagna and have some desserts then.i let my Nigerian friend make ubos the leche flan.sa sooobrang haba ata ng pila,naumay ako sa katitingin sa menu board nila.we waited around 30mins or more to have it finally ordered.running out of seats ang scenario during that time, while we were eating at a couch,some customers were staring at us,probably waiting for us to leave.kairita honestly.we ate quickly, and i smiled when they say "salamat ha?" before we completely left.tomguts lang siguro.Pinoy nga sila.

we went to department store after.i was planning to buy step in with hills yesterday.we were on search when my stomach ached.haist.i found myself in one of the available cubicles.hahaha.when we got back,i decided to buy the one from "elegance"..good thing there's size five then.i was actually planning to buy some vcd and dvd sana but due to some things that sucked,we decided to just buy perfume at bench *i bought two,one for my mom* and finally got home.that was around 8:10 too, nearly approaching to the earth hour so we decided to get out of that mall...


8:45pm i was home.surprisngly,lights at our compound were out.they participated huh!haha.wasnt able to do anything since mama strictly advised us not to turn on any lights.i rested in our bed.and i was awakened by some noises.kids playing outside.nagugutom din ako.i checked my mobile phone,8:16 am.i have fallen asleep last night.haha.

i got out of bed.changed clothes.cleaned myself.eaten.thoughts came over.my fave day ended again.looking forward to another one next week.my fave day ended with this call...

workforce:command centre, goodmoring.
me:yes, good morning.ask ko lang sched ni *my name*
workforce:2:00 am to 11:00 manila time.
me:the whole week?
workforce:yes.
me:ok,thanks.

i am no longer on perm sched.shall i be sad?

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

ILLUSION BEFORE.ILLUSION AFTER.ILLUSION FOREVER.

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DISCLAIMER: i am not to question those persons who believe in it's concept

and i am not trying to let them think as well cause i am pretty sure that i wont

be able to do that..

i know that i am not influential though.. again, this is my

blog... MY BLOG... if you question this, i bet, you really need to grab a

dictionary, and better search for its lexical meaning then... *winks*


HAVE YOU EVER HAD A BEST FRIEND? do you happen to have one? how long have you been friends? what are the parameters you've set? any expectations? disappointments? be it opposite or same sex, how come you considered him/her BEST among your friends? does he or she really differ from them? in what sense? moving forward.. this is not the first time that i questioned the concept of such... it's been an inquiry to me ever since...ever since... ever since... ahm, you might as well ask that to me again...i don't have any idea either... that's awful, right? but that doesn't matter, all i want is to have this long time question finally have an acceptable response...i repeat, an acceptable response...


(you might think that i never had onE and that made me feel that way.. huh!all ears on me please! i had two, oh, they were three and whatever the reason behind this perception is, just be it... )



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i am just wondering how,why,when do we say that this person is the best kind of friend that we have.does it happen when you are always with that person?when you feel like you completely trust him/her?when you feel that kind of belongingness?when both of you are part of an ingroup?i really don't think so.


concept of best friend doesn't exist in my world.though i had three before, it seems that this will constantly remain to be a pure illusion.

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not that i don't have any friend.i have lots, it just that they have proven me THAT ONE NEEDS NOT TO BE THE BEST,one just needs to be a FRIEND.once you know what friend means and once you are, everything follows.everything will follow....



Tuesday, March 24, 2009

ALL BRANCHING OUT...


its been a while.. haven't done blogging for the last couple of days?weeks?months?nah.. that doesn't matter then... in silence i speak with myself..try to do some reflections..thinking things over..coming up with decisions.. but at the end of the day, im still indecisive...pity myself...

it's been a while.. a lot of things had happened... im somehow looking for someone who knows what's the real meaning of LISTEN... someone i am comfortable enough that i can speak and outburst all the emotions i keep on hiding even to myself... someone that i know i can be true enough and someone that i can COMPLETELY TRUST....it's still good to know that you have one...

the lessened demand in school impacted me much... good thing that i am somehow getting enough sleep and rest than usual... good thing that i am not that much stressed than before... and it's just a sign.. sign that i am finally getting there... GAGRADUATE NA AKO!!!!!!!!!!

...goodbye to group works
"and how you deal with members claiming they are'nt aware of any task assigned"

...goodbye to reporting
"and how it feels to wear those corporate attires and deliver your part in front of the class with you professor waiting for single mistake that you'll definitely commit"

...goodbye to being a pretender and pretentious
"review.stud.review.hooosh"

...goodbye to very lengthy and objective oral and written examinations "exam.failed.exam.failed.exam.passed.yes!"

....goodbye to all the rehearsals the class had in preparation for a presentation "and how it feels to lose after every competition"

...goodbye to numerous or should i say infinite number of assignments given almost every after such
"waaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

...goodbye college life...


wait, im getting lost... where am i at?

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooooossssssssshhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am almost done.almost done.almost done!yipeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!

on the other hand... the not that much busy sched of mine made my everyday life ssooo B-O-R-I-N-G!!!!!!!!!!

try to take a look at this.here's my routine *for a regular day*

-get up at night
-get ready to work
-ride a cab
-make use of the elevator
-go to ladies' washroom
-get inside the workplace
-chat with friends for a while
-pull up tools
-review updates
-go on auto in
-get auxes on time
-log out
-get home
-check online accts
-play with pets for a while
-eat
-sleep
-AND START ALL OVER AGAIN...

though,i don't complain.. i am not complaining here.. i have an option... and i chose to have all those stuffs in a routine... just giving you a glimpse on how my normal day passes... i know you don't care, but this is my blog, i can post whatever i want to... *winks*

just then i realized that i am not used to this kind of living... need to have some changes.changes. changes.changes.changes.

have you already read paolo's VERONICA DECIDES TO DIE? if yes, good then,if not, go to hell.. haha.. kidding.. that novel feared me a lot... seriously...i wont give any hint on what is it all about, it's always for you to find out... better grab one... *winks.winks.winks*


you know what, i am totally getting lost here... dunno what my focus is.. and that will be a shame on my part.. im still not okey.. and still trying to gather all my thoughts and focus on things that i want to write.. ill be adding this one as my routine as well... assestment at the end of the day? i dont think so...

i am not in the mood today... *no longer new*

hahaha... just want to leave this to you - "get back to reality and concentrate on the concrete"