what a week it has been

yeah right.another week is over.tiring.very exhausting but a lot more fulfilling.

my week started with me visiting my university to check if ever there's any progress with regards to the upcoming commencement day.other than day,april 20th was our graduation pictorial.we were strictly advised to come in earlier than the scheduled time,which was 8am.yours truly arrived there at around 8:30,a little bit late but not really.i was under the assumption that it will be done right before we took our lunch,but it's the other way around.oh!Filipino will always be a Filipino.around 5pm,i was home.

tuesday,april 21st.i asked a very close friend of mine to inform if and only if my name was already added on the most awaited "tentative list of graduates for 2008-2009".unfortunately,there's no new post yet,and so after shift i decided to get home and do the usual eterinaries.

wednesday after shift i went immediately to school.hopeful.assuming that there's a new post.i rushed to the registrar and gladly,there was!but the thing is,my name was still not there.i waited until 4 or 5pm due to rumors that they were supposed to post new list after lunch,but they did not.i decided to check my status with the officer in the registrar assigned to our college."antayin mo lang"-she responded.i nodded but at the back of my mind,until when?i only have two days left.this coming Monday will be the release of the final list of graduates and the certificates of candidacy.paano 'to?i just then found myself seating and crying on one of the benches.i really did.just for some reasons that only few people knew and could understand.

thursday,april 23rd.the zambales escapade day.i was supposed to be at Iba,Zambales for a youth camp that we planned to participate with months ago.i filed my leave hoping that finally i'll be having a break.but the leave was never approved.and so,i stayed with my usual life while closest friends of mine left me for a while and participated on such event.i hate being alone.maybe because i am used of doing stuffs together with them or might be with their assistance.and so i was in doubt if i'll drop to school after shift due to that incident.but i have to.so after shift,on my own,i checked the list.sabi ko 'pag wala pa yung pangalan ko dun by that time,ayoko na talaga.but to my surprise,my name was already there!finally there!the long wait was finally over!and the sure thing?gagraduate ako.(=

thanks for those people na walang sawang nagpakita ng suporta sa labang ito.

i havent got enough sleep during the remaining days of this week.but the mere fact that it will be for my graduation,everything wasn't difficult for to me to accomplish.saturday afternoon,i'm finally done.

me and my friends who just got back from zambales done something unusual yesterday after school.we headed along to ROBINSON'S Pioneer to had our lunch and they let me see the smaller version of one of the books that i am really wanting to buy. this one -

you can buy me one of you want.may hardbound nito,around Php850 ata,but the smaller one cost Php 350.00 only...

going back,we had our lunch at KFC and merienda at Mcdonalds located near RTU in Boni.after that we decided to visit Ivan's resindence,ow!not decided but actually that was the original plan.the unusual thing?nagpahula ako kay Ivan.he knows how to and so i tried.the result was awful,believe me.and that was something that i regret i've done.and i am on the process of convincing myself not to believe in such.maybe,i'll be forever on process.


fortune telling known to be predicting future is one thing that i don't really have the guts to do so.siguro 'cause i don't believe in them and i don't want to believe them.curiosity and indecisiveness led me to try it for once.it just so happened that the results were not good.really not good.just to give you a glimpse,one of those stupid questions i asked was how will i die.reading the cards,he said,due to accident.and it resulted to paranoia.i tell you.and i have to get it out of my system before anything can happen.not now.

and so that was how my week ended.the coming week will be a different story...

disppointment

we had a family gathering yesterday.it was a double celebration:my lola (father side) on her 70th and baste (my pamangkin)on his 2nd birthdate.isang magarbong handaan ang ginanap,as expected.my waiters.pag nasa kanila ako,parang ang gaan gaan ng buhay.no wonder,they are all financially stable.

kanya kanyang table.kanya kanyang usapan.the good thing?i didn't isolate myself.marunong na akong makipagsocialize.i finally learned that.

the celebration was quite not that memorable.just a simple family gathering with private guests.what makes it worth remembering for me was the mere fact that i disappointed most of them.kumbaga,it can be identified as an "infamous" one.i guess.

on the conversations we had, given na ang kamustahan.i then admitted to them that i am finally working.one thing that i kept as a secret for a short time.and i just can't forget how they reacted.i guess i'll never will.my family on the father side are title motivated.believe me.they don't mind the compensation,they are more on sa "pagmamalaki."other people's impression matters to them.that matters most.i guess i can't blame them,my cousins are nurse,chemist and engineer,anong laban ko?

career wise,you can never consider call center as a blue collar job, as something that you can be proud of.
a lot of people thought of it na trabaho ng tamad, trabaho ng mga bobo,ng wala ng mapasukan.you might think of that too.and once you do,i can tell you one thing:wala kang alam sa pagiging isang call center agent.better yet shut up.we are getting high salaries in line with the pressure.but we are treated in a way you will never imagine.para kameng robot na hawak ng mga amerikano ang remote.yeah,given the fact that you are being compensated well,the nature of the work is a question.and the growth?that's next in line.

i never thought of staying on where i am working currently.but as of the moment,i need,i have to.when i was talking to "imo", my cuz who is kenneth william in real life,realizations came to my mind.i suppose you're familiar with "bebe gandang hari"... they are quite identical.and he reminded me of a lot of things.atleast for now,i finally have something written, worthy enough to be called as a "plan".

i don't want to think that i am a disppointement.'cause i know i never was and i will never be.but i am thinking how these people,yung mga taong nakasaksi sa mga pinagdaanan ko for the entire 21 years are having this feeling towards me?i know,i am nothing compared to my cousins na may mga titulong ikinakabit sa unahan ng mga pangalan nila.but do we usually base one's capablities on such?probably,that's an additional point.kumbaga sa food,enticing ka pag may titulo ka.pero not everything will follow.it will not always follow.and i know,they are pretty much aware of it.


21 years.i guess i am still young enough.marami pa akong pagdadaanan.marami pang darating na opportunities.though hindi ako kapagmalaki malaki ngayon?i know someday i will.for now i might be a disappointment in their eyes,but it wlill never stay as is.never.

r.a.n.d.o.m

random view of still photos...
my place,my world,my people...

hear or shame?

i was browsing my email when suddenly i was routed to this page.i don't know this person,but i found myself in his shoes when i was reading his blog with regards to being a RAT.i'm afraid,i'm one.read it.

source:http://ryantheusbillionaire.blogspot.com/

HOW DEVOTED ARE WE IN THE CORPORATE WORLD?

How far are we to our goals?

I remember when I was in kindergarten, we had a school program where we declared what we want to be in the future. My classmates declared that they want to be a teacher, engineer, architect, etc. I can still remember my line, “I want to be a doctor when I grow up!” No wonder, I am a rat today. Trapped in the race. We were raised that way. We were educated to study hard, earn good grades, and find a safe and secure job with good benefits. So I studied hard, graduated Cum Laude, employed in one of the largest oil companies in the world which has benefits much better than any other companies. But the problem is, EMPLOYMENT IS RISKY. Risk is everywhere. We cannot eliminate the risks but we can reduce it. How can we reduce the risk? We have to be in control. How risky is employment? Can we decide for our career? Can we stay in the company if they are kicking us out? Are we in control? WE ARE DISPENSABLE. The reality is the company determines for how long they will need us. They can kick us out anytime whether we like it or not. And if it happens, we will lose our source of income and it will take some time before we can find another company that will employ us. What if we are not young anymore? Which company will employ us? What we have done doesn’t matter. We may get acknowledged for our contributions, but not all of us and not all of our contributions. The company will tell us that we were paid anyway. We are being paid the same amount as if we do our ordinary work routine.

Why are we staying in the company? Below are some of the reasons:
1. We think that our job is the only thing that can give us a good source of income. GOOD source of income MUST be stable. Is earned income stable? Are we working hard for this income?
2. We are not exposed to people who succeeded outside the corporate world. We know people “succeeded” in the corporate world. They are in the management positions. But are they happy? Do they have time freedom? How often they are with their family? There are some, but most are not.
3. The advice we get about situations is coming from people who are in the same field, trapped in the rat race as well. They cannot give us advice that is beyond their experiences. They advise us to be trapped in the rat race like them.
4. We were educated that being in a job is the only thing that can solve our financial needs. Most of us look for security. We work for someone else for money. We work for survival, not for the lifestyle we desire.

We are still in the rat race for some reasons:
1. We believe we don’t have a choice. It’s better to have a job than nothing at all.
2. We believe we can’t do anything. We do not have the control. The company decides for us. We do not own the company.
3. We believe we are not in the position to whinge. If we complain, we know the consequences. We might get fired.
We stay in the rat race for security. We work for someone else for money to survive. We are SLAVES, and the company and money are the MASTERS. We follow rules imposed by the company. It motivates people to work really hard for it. It decides how much salary we get. It determines if we are beneficial to it or not.
“Insanity is doing the same things over and over again but expecting different results.” – Albert Einstein
Below are some of the things possible to happen if we get out of the financial slavery:
1. We work because we choose to, not because we have to.
2. We can provide the dreams of the people we really love.
3. We can spend most of our time with the people matter to us.
4. We always have a choice.
5. We can take control of our careers and lives.
6. We don’t have to for someone else for money.
7. We are the drivers of our financial journey to success.
8. We can live through the lifestyle we desire.
9. We can grow more as a person.
10. We will have the right information and education.

“The size of your success is measured by the strength of your desire; the size of your dream; and how you handle disappointment along the way.” – Robert Kiyosaki

Sometimes, the fastest way to change and improve yourself is simply to change your environment. Being in the community of like-minded people can empower us. We will enjoy life more and more and become more meaningful.

Most people don’t act. Some have plenty of actions. But what we need is to take action and FOCUS (Follow One Course Until Successful).

“Keep your focus intact, and focus on the solution.” – Donald Trump

What shall we do?
1. Start writing down our goals 5-10 years from now that really matter to us and assess.
2. Find a mentor.
3. Be with people who are committed to transform their lives financially, emotionally, and spiritually.
4. Start reading books such as “Why We Want You To Be Rich” by Robert Kiyosaki and Donald Trump
5. Play the Cashflow game created by Robert Kiyosaki to learn more about money, business, and accounting in fun and easy way.


“If you want to go somewhere, it is best to find someone who has already been there.” – Robert Kiyosaki

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*he has a point.it's a hear!hear!*

hell no!

The Bottom Line

Having fun can lead to having a romance, so don't stop the good times right now.

In Detail

Today, someone's brilliant one-liner will do more than tickle your funny bone -- it will ignite a tiny spark of attraction! Could this spark grow into a flame of passion, or even true love? Keep laughing and maybe you'll find out. Having fun can lead to having a romance, so don't stop the good times you are having -- reschedule something if you need to! Your ideal mate is much more likely to be a person who can make you smile than a person who can make you swoon.

sasama ako.gagraduate tayo.

Minsan

minsan sa may kalayaan tayo'y nagkatagpuan
may mga sariling gimik at kaya-kanyang hangad sa buhay
sa ilalim ng iisang bubong
mga sekretong ibinubulong
kahit na anong mangyari
kahit na saan ka man patungo


ngunit ngayon kay bilis maglaho ng kahapon
sana'y huwag kalimutan ang ating mga pinagsamahan
at kung sakaling gipitin ay laging iisipin
na minsan tayo ay naging
tunay na magkaibigan

minsan ay parang wala nang bukas sa buhay natin
inuman sa magdamag na para bang tayo'y mauubusan
sa ilalim ng bilog na buwan
mga tiyan nati'y walang laman
ngunit kahit na walang pera
ang bawat gabi'y anong saya

minsan ay hindi ko na alam ang nangyayari
kahit na anong gawin
lahat ng bagay ay merong hangganan
dahil ngayon tayo ay nilimot ng kahapon
di na mapipilitang buhayin ang ating pinagsamahan
ngunit kung sakaling mapadaan baka
ikaw ay aking tawagan
dahil minsan tayo ay naging
tunay na magkaibigan

*i was just kidding.i just so like this song.*

roxie.

BOREDOM.

Sydney

You have a loud personality, and has trouble shutting up. You often pretend you don't care, when it is clear you care more then you should. You take people very seriously, and believe everything in those world should be a joke. You are lazy, but are open to adventure. YOU are in charge! You take what you like very seriously, you are easily obsessed.

- i guess.

who's who?

Sagittarius

You are most compatible with SAGITTARIUS! I'm sure most of your friends are Sagittarians! Together you're going to rock! Sagittarians have a positive outlook on life, are full of enterprise, energy, versatility, adventurousness and eagerness to extend experience beyond the physically familiar. They enjoy travelling and exploration, the more so because their minds are constantly open to new dimensions of thought. They are basically ambitious and optimistic, and continue to be so even when their hopes are dashed. They are honorable, honest, trustworthy, truthful, generous and sincere, with a passion for justice. Sagittarians know how to be outspoken and exactly what expressions will hurt their adversaries most. They are strong-willed and good at organizing, a combination that gives them the ability to bring any project they undertake to a successful conclusion.

i'm STUCK.

"Katrina Tan: ay naku.. naalala q ung ex q. antagal din bgo ipost ung pangalan nia hnggng hndi n tlga xa nkasali..
roxynne_1812: o? bkit ano naging prblema nya?
Katrina Tan: hndi sya nasama sa grade sheet ng isang prof pero inattenan nia nmn un.."

twenty five days left.twenty five days before the much awaiting day.and yeah,i only have couple of days para antayin yung paglabas ng pangalan ko at finally maasikaso ng tuluyan ang "graduation."

some of my block mates have been busy recently in line with the upcoming event.me?i am stuck.hear my story.just the concise one.i was inadvertently removed from the grading sheet of one of the major subjects i had.i was actually able to submit all the necessary documents needed,however,natatakot pa rin ako.see the aformentioned conversation?same scenario,and see what happened?no.THAT'S A BIG NO,NO for me.

sigh.


fear.fear.fear.natatakot talaga ko.not to graduate is one of the few things i never,ever anticipated.it was never my option.nagpakahirap ako for the entire senior year to finally end it up this coming May.now what?things are not on where they were supposed to be.I'm getting paranoid.a friend of mine used to say "expect the worst but hope for the best as well." i don't have to think and convince myself with such perspective now,'cause i will not allow myself, too.gagraduate ako.hindi puwedeng hindi.HINDI TALAGA PUWEDE.

dumadagdag pa ang listahan ng mga dpat bayaran.

ang graduation fee. (ni hndi ko nga alam kung may karapatan akong magbayad non)
'yung graduation ball. (na hindi ko naman talaga sinangayunan)
at graduation dress. (bibili na ba ako?)


i am stuck.hindi ko alam kung 'san dapat magsimula.kung ano ang dapat kong gawin.i am thinking of a lot of things.sobra.

OPT OUT!

"It's your right to opt out if you don't agree with what is going on"

sometimes gusto kong maniwala sa kapangyarihan ng astolohiya.may mga pagkakataon kasi na kahit papaano,umaayon and nakasulat sa magiging takbo ng araw mo.or,it could be,just a psychological effect brought about by astrology,coincidence,serendipity,providence o swerte lang talaga.

horoscope as defined in http://education.yahoo.com/reference/dictionary/entry/horoscope, is An astrological forecast, as of a person's future, based on a diagram of the aspect of the planets and stars at a given moment.

RELIABILITY WISE?no idea.

for me to check what my horoscope says is not a common thing for me.i just don't believe in it,cause i don't want to.ayoko.there are only two instances that i'll do such:either i am inlove or indecisive.madalas kapag hindi ko alam ang gagawin,i rely on it.but that is very frequent.

it just so happened that this day is one of the stupidity days i ever had.awful.distressing.

and the worst fact? i am still on the state of indecisiveness *kung nageexist man ang term na 'to,imbentor ako madalas*

seriously,i am.
to weigh?gladly,70% vs. 30%
that's better.

opt out.
opt out.
opt out.

mag-iisip muna ako.being reactive is one thing that i am trying to avoid.

respond.
respond.
respond.

then learn from it.
again,learn from it.

horoscope in detail: The strong current of this day is set, and you can either hop into your little boat and ride this flow of energy, or stay on the shore and off the waterway altogether. Forget the notion that you can change the tide, because it is beyond your control. Be humble in the activities that are planned today, and accept the fact that other people may know what is best -- at least for now.

new work.plan ruined.sigh.

blurred.
see this site?looks familiar?
well.i was in search of a related job earlier.
when i say related,i mean related to my course.completely related,i must say.
due to some unexplainable circumstances and things beyond my control,wasn't able to look for one.

i am -

tired.
sleepy.
craving for so many things.
in deep thought.
in deep worry.
disturbed.


i want -

to eat.
then sleep.
then,ahm,sleep.
yeah.sleep.
then forget everything.
MEMORY DISTURBANCE is next in line.

not so tête-à-tête.xine and xanne.

tintin Apin: xane..may balita u sa skul?
roxynne_1812: goodmorning xine.. ala pa.. balik pa lang si johs dun by monday to check the status of mmg...
tintin Apin: ay ganun..
tintin Apin: may alam u ba sa pagaplay for honor?
tintin Apin: wat i mean..tapos na ba?si tere..nagaplay diba?
roxynne_1812: ahm,bukod sa form ng application for grad,ala na.. si theresa ang may alam...
tintin Apin: happy easter nga pla xane
roxynne_1812: hahaha.. api easter din xine...
tintin Apin: hows vacation?
tintin Apin: ano pla gmit ni tere ngayon?
roxynne_1812: okie naman.. manila girl pa rin.. nakglobe daw xa starting this morning..
tintin Apin: ah owkie.tnx tnx
roxynne_1812: owkie..
tintin Apin: work u pa rin?
roxynne_1812: uum.. nakaleave lang ako...
roxynne_1812: kaw mustah?
roxynne_1812: nasa bicol ka ba?
tintin Apin: etoh..linis hauz..hahhaha
tintin Apin: balik na din me jan ngayong 16
tintin Apin: may grad pix tau diba
tintin Apin: haha
tintin Apin: bochog..nagpataba lang me na nman dito
tintin Apin: siopao ang grad pic ko
tintin Apin: hahahah
roxynne_1812: ah.. so nasa bicol ka nga.. sarap naman..haha.. uu by 20th ung grad puc...
tintin Apin: kamiss magaral xane
tintin Apin: 2 weeks na me dito
tintin Apin: 2nd time ko pa lang tong maaga nagising
tintin Apin: heheh
roxynne_1812: uu nga... pag nakakita nga ako ng banners ng enrollment ongoing,nappaisp ako e..
roxynne_1812: hahah
tintin Apin: hay..feeling ko nabobobo ako
tintin Apin: ganun sguro tlga..
tintin Apin: pag may pasok anman.ayaw na
tintin Apin: ehhehe
roxynne_1812: ahehehe.. kea nga ako pag nasa bahay,online lang..fear ko rin na mabobo e..
roxynne_1812: haha.. teka,anu nga pla balak mo?
tintin Apin: iniisip ko na magaaplay call center
roxynne_1812: seryoso?
tintin Apin: ahmm..
tintin Apin: naiisip..
tintin Apin: pera muna daw isipin ko
tintin Apin: ipon for business
roxynne_1812: ah... sabagy.. yun din sabi nila there e...
tintin Apin: san ba maganda magaaplay?
tintin Apin: saka alis si mama,ng 6 months..
tintin Apin: so manila muna me for 6 months
tintin Apin: punta xa japan
roxynne_1812: out of the country?wala akong idea kung san maganda.. alam ko si karen,sa ict na e
tintin Apin: oo nga daw..
tintin Apin: kasi hirap maghintay sa mga trabahong related sa course
roxynne_1812: try mo na lang muna...wala akong idea kung san talaga maganda e.
tintin Apin: sa ibm daw
tintin Apin: malaki daw dun
roxynne_1812: mahirap dun e
roxynne_1812: hahaha
tintin Apin: kaw magkano sahod u jan?
roxynne_1812: maliit lang... almost **** per month.. malayo kumpara sa iba...toxic pa...
tintin Apin: oo nga
tintin Apin: kaw ano balak u?
tintin Apin: stay ka jan?
roxynne_1812: stay muna.. habang wala pang magndang work.. sasabay ako kila there pagapply ng related sa course naten.. pagkagrad magiipon na tlaga ako.. haha
tintin Apin: kawindang tlga paglalabas na sa academe noh..
tintin Apin: crisis pa ngayon
tintin Apin: heheh
tintin Apin: wag daw maging choosy ang fresh grad..
tintin Apin: goodluck sa ating mga buhay buhay
tintin Apin: hehhe
roxynne_1812: oo nga,marami nagsabi..kea kahit auko na samen,ndi pa ko nagreresign.. mahirap pag walang work
tintin Apin: punta ka grad ball?
roxynne_1812: grad ball?ndi e.. punta kame zambales nun nila there
tintin Apin: ano gawin nu sa zambales?
tintin Apin: ayus ah
tintin Apin: heheh
tintin Apin: ayaw ko na din atend..
tintin Apin: konti lang atend sa atin
roxynne_1812: ah.. un yung sa church nila kate.. camp nila..unga onti lang ung aatend e
roxynne_1812: nagkakatmaran na kse
tintin Apin: oo nga
tintin Apin: sana kahit class na alng natin magkaron ng gathering..
roxynne_1812: un din sabi namen ni there,mas ok kung yung klase na lang naten.. kea lang,baka raw ndi rin pumunta lahat
tintin Apin: eh di kung sino gusto..
tintin Apin: hehe
tintin Apin: kumbaga..maghihiwalay na rin anman diba
roxynne_1812: sabagay...sana may magorganize
roxynne_1812: hahaha
tintin Apin: mamimissed nila kung di sila punta
tintin Apin: pagusapan namin nina jessie..
roxynne_1812: sige,sige...
tintin Apin: naisip ko mas maganda yung class na lang
tintin Apin: di maxdo magastos like sa grad ball
roxynne_1812: ok un.. atleast tayo tayo lang
tintin Apin: oo ..at least hindi pasosyalan
tintin Apin: heheh
roxynne_1812: haha.. TOTOO
tintin Apin: cge xanne..
tintin Apin: tapusin ko aking trabahong haus
roxynne_1812: o cge.. maglinis ka na jan.. haha
tintin Apin: punta kami beach eh
roxynne_1812: tex text na lang..
tintin Apin: cge cge
roxynne_1812: WAW!hahah
roxynne_1812: yngat
tintin Apin: smart ka dba?
tintin Apin: miss u xane..
tintin Apin is typing a message.
roxynne_1812: oum..smart and globe.. same hir xine.. see yah soon
tintin Apin: bye bye
roxynne_1812: babay

w.a.n.d.e.r.l.u.s.t

*clockwise*

...baguio...
...eiffel tower in Paris...
...disneyland...
...newyork city...
...palawan...
...italy...


be it out of the country or not,i am on my strongest desire to travel...getting tired being a manila girl....

reminiscing.

i was in the middle of organizing my closet when suddenly a piece of paper fell...look what i have found...dated september 01, 2007...




i understand and i am fully aware that you can't read what is stated in this piece of paper and so i decided to encode it separately providing you all the exact words used...OR YOU MIGHT AS WELL CLICK THE IMAGE TO ZOOM IT..(=^;^=)

Department of Blessed Men and Women of the Philippines

Resolution no. 001-2007

A RESOLUTION ENTITLING ROXANNE BAUTISTA AS THE AMBASSADRESS OF ELEGANCE AND INTELLIGENCE IN THE WHOLE ARCHIPELAGO OF THE PHILIPPINES AND WILL PROMOTE THE AFOREMENTIONED TO EVERY YOUNGSTER IN THIS REPUBLIC AS SHE REPRESENTS THOSE IN HER GENERATION.

WHEREAS,Roxanne is a result of hardships and struggles that she surpassed that help her in having an impressive persona;

WHEREAS,Xanne naturally embeds elegance as her mom gave birth to her;

WHEREAS,she epitomizes prowess in exquisite way of singing,graceful dancing,soul-stirring acting and eloquent form of articulation as these were forecasted by the nurses in the hospital or by people in the place where she was born;

WHEREAS,she constantly perceives the world around her and figures things out on an intellectual level, she assimilates ideas excellently and enjoys having conversations with almost anybody, Xanne received a lot of recognitions in helping others because of her compassion, she made significant contribution toward creating a more loving world, based on humanitarian ideals;

WHEREAS,Xanne has a classmate:JESSIE VILLABRILLE;

THEREFORE , BE IT RESOLVED THAT THE AFORESAID TITLE WILL BE GIVEN TO ROXANNE BAUTISTA IN HER 20th BIRTHDAY, SEPTEMBER 01, IN THE YEAR OF OUR LORD, 2007 IN MANILA, PHILIPPINES.

Signed:
JESSIE VILLABRILLE
CHANCELLOR, DBMWP




"a celebration worth remembering..."

by katrina tan

i really don't know if she really entitled this poem "roxanne".. i assumed, i guess.. header kase yung name ko e..and so i thought..

"roxanne"

she is like an innocent girl...

sitting alone as the sun turns into yellowish gold...

crying as she thinks of the man who loves her at the same time,broke her heart...

she thinks that life is unfair..

that she can't live anymore...

but as she look down to the water,she saw a man on her side...

wiping her tears that were falling from her eyes...

the man said,

"life is not unfair,why do you have to cry for a man who'll not gonna be with you?find peace with me,love me first...i will never make you cry,i will never leave you,until i found the right guy for you...i don't want to see you cry...i love you with all my heart."

As she noticed,the man disappeared.the tears stopped from falling from her eyes...

i guess i am still on the same situation...

oh well.scriptwriter!

You Should Be a Film Writer

You don't just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind. You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life. Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling. And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen!

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

sensitivity

Your Sensitivity Score: 82%

You are an extremely sensitive person. You notice everything. You've probably been called overly sensitive before, and it's partially true. Highly sensitive people tend to be highly intelligent. And you just can't turn off that part of you.

Are You Extremely Sensitive?

burned out,i guess.

You Are 84% Burned Out

You are extremely burned out. You work too hard, and you're not getting the results you deserve. It's time for a life change, as soon as you can manage it. You're giving away most of your energy to something you don't even enjoy.

Are You Burned Out?

CHICK FLICK

"i just need you to stop being nice to me unless you gonna marry me..."

-he's not just into you

"sentiments of a HIGH HEELS gurlash"

am i on the right track?

i was walking.looking all those faces from left to right.then i started - "ladies and gentlemen, good afternoon."-i was in the midst of declaiming in front of numerous people when suddenly, my mobile phone alarmed.oh!another night is over.it's Monday again.

it was around 6:30am when i called my mom from our room to prepare breakfast.i was also awakened by hunger too.i stood up,fixed myself and ate.the weekend had passed without me even trying to visit my site.that's something new.I'm quite not in the mood.i spent my weekend in front of our television,literally.i watched "Knowing:by Nicolas Cage" and the rest for the regular programming 'til i noticed that weekend is over.nah!weekend is over.

i decided to finally open the laptop to check my online accounts.my horoscope:Write out your feelings today -- the physical act will help you understand them.i didn't know what does it mean until i was able to read my best friend's bulletin in fs.(oopps,ex-best friend,i mean)it was all about her experience at wowowee last Saturday.she played together with her co-disc jockey.yeah.she's one of them hiding in the name of "seksi sabel" of ifm.our relationship is not the question here,so better not to ask what happened.i admittedly envied her.i guess no one can blame me.she made it.at her early age,she was able to have a name in the radio industry.she was right in choosing her course and spent 4 years to indulge in it.kudos for her.she excelled and is now exposed on her field.

in this incident,i then asked myself if i am on the right track.

broadcast communication was never my choice.though i am a writer when i was in grade V and VI, and a journalism student during high school,i never thought of taking related course because practically speaking,i was informed and quite aware na walang pera sa media.plus the fact that i so love math.so when i graduated last 2001,i am completely decided to take accountancy as my course.i passed the exam,proudly saying that accountancy is said to be the bread and butter of PUP that time.but things didnt end up as what i thought it would be.i was in pile when someone shouted -NO MORE SLOTS-shocks.'san ako pupulutin nito?i had my plans.everything was in line up.and taking accountancy was next in line.but there were no slots available.no slots available.

minutes after i just found myself in the pile for graduated students that were about to take COMMUNICATION COURSE.we were given choices,it's either JOURNALISM or BROADCAST COMMUNICATION.applicants for JOURN were given task to come up with an essay first to see if they qualify.I AM NOT IN THE MOOD TO WRITE.so i decided to take BROADCAST COMMUNICATION instead.that's the only option that i had that time.i am honestly not certain if i am taking the right one,let it be.

and so i just found myself enjoying the course.and now, that four years of indulging in it were over.it's all over.

i am not regretful plus the fact that regrets/repent was never in my vocabulary.admittedly i enjoyed my entire stay in the isolated campus of COLLEGE OF COMMUNICATION.my experience in such course can never be put in words,really.but experience will always be experience.as quoted: even the most perfect day eventually has it's own sunset.


this coming 8th of May will be our commencement day,at world trade hall.by that time,we will be proclaimed as bachelors in the field of communication,specifically broadcast communication.the entire four years of being a working student finally ended.my status quo?regular employee in the call center industry.and i am honestly not happy with it.i am one of those who are not in the normal life.financially speaking,i have no question,i am being compensated properly as i can see.the nature of the work is the thing that really bothers me.i am a graduated communication student.i am not supposed to end up working in such industry.i deserve more.we,the graduates deserve a lot more.

at the end of the day,this is where it will all boils down, in our hands.so don't waste time.make every second worth it.

-This day is full of unique events that will spark your creative output and get you inspired enough to do something with it. Write out your feelings -- either in a letter to yourself, to the person you are trying to get to know better, or to someone who is getting on your last nerve. Your way with words is quite skilled, and will evoke exactly the right message. Your clear messages will help make it all too obvious what the next steps should be.

does it really happen?

i am not in the mood to write!
-just sharing....