Tuesday, April 14, 2009

i'm STUCK.

"Katrina Tan: ay naku.. naalala q ung ex q. antagal din bgo ipost ung pangalan nia hnggng hndi n tlga xa nkasali..
roxynne_1812: o? bkit ano naging prblema nya?
Katrina Tan: hndi sya nasama sa grade sheet ng isang prof pero inattenan nia nmn un.."

twenty five days left.twenty five days before the much awaiting day.and yeah,i only have couple of days para antayin yung paglabas ng pangalan ko at finally maasikaso ng tuluyan ang "graduation."

some of my block mates have been busy recently in line with the upcoming event.me?i am stuck.hear my story.just the concise one.i was inadvertently removed from the grading sheet of one of the major subjects i had.i was actually able to submit all the necessary documents needed,however,natatakot pa rin ako.see the aformentioned conversation?same scenario,and see what happened?no.THAT'S A BIG NO,NO for me.

sigh.


fear.fear.fear.natatakot talaga ko.not to graduate is one of the few things i never,ever anticipated.it was never my option.nagpakahirap ako for the entire senior year to finally end it up this coming May.now what?things are not on where they were supposed to be.I'm getting paranoid.a friend of mine used to say "expect the worst but hope for the best as well." i don't have to think and convince myself with such perspective now,'cause i will not allow myself, too.gagraduate ako.hindi puwedeng hindi.HINDI TALAGA PUWEDE.

dumadagdag pa ang listahan ng mga dpat bayaran.

ang graduation fee. (ni hndi ko nga alam kung may karapatan akong magbayad non)
'yung graduation ball. (na hindi ko naman talaga sinangayunan)
at graduation dress. (bibili na ba ako?)


i am stuck.hindi ko alam kung 'san dapat magsimula.kung ano ang dapat kong gawin.i am thinking of a lot of things.sobra.


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