it never seems to end.
i was asleep.
somebody knocked.
i opened the door.
a familiar face peeked in.
BOOM!i found myself in the same situation.it arrived again unannounced.
...problem manufacturer - that's how my friend termed me when i was confiding with her yesterday.i can't even blame her.i have been thinking a lot lately that i even found myself trapped within my own mind and emotion with how i perceive things.this is exactly the point where i am right now,right this time.I actually never thought that i would be writing this entry soon but ideas came pouring like it has a life of its own.
i am annoyed.
love is a "special" feeling but i must admit,i am getting annoyed with it as of yet or should i say most of the time.if i can only term it negatively,let me say that love is BULLSHIT.However, ironically speaking i also like it as much as i hate it.funny.blah!blah!blah!
"they used to say that i had that poor-choice-of-partner capability.i really don't think so.it just all happened.and right now,i must admit,i feel myself helplessly falling,holding on to the feeling of love towards this person.it feels that it is so right when it's completely wrong.a lot of times,i have some intracommunication,reminding myself to control my emotion,think clear and be responsible.but at the back of my mind,i admit that i really had a great time with him and even if i turned the clock back,i would make the same choice.no remorse.no regrets".
i am feeling that,i admit but i know logically speaking that is BULLSHIT.CRAP.
love is the reason why people started to confuse logic from emotion and emotion from logic.
"you are just complicating things," she said.
i know,and if only it was never hard to choose,it wouldn't get this far.like i was stuck on a situation where in i was asking myself should i turn away and run to a safe place or jump off the cliff and see what happens?poor me.it is so hard enough to deal with your very own self.pathetic.
Moving forward,whichever it is,not only him,every people we meet always has a great impact in our existence.we just have to keep in mind that there are some things that are not really meant to be.there is always this person who,unfortunately gets away.worst is,he or she should have been the one but just arrived at a later time.And,realistically speaking,learning to live without the people that we used to be with will be a tremendous adjustment we have to cope with.as they said,they had been a part of your journey,of your existence and at the latter part of this game,we will discover why it had happened.Inevitably we will soon live in a tangled life and rarely,it seems to be pointless to try untangling it.
i am in pain,and i know it's going to be a million times worse when that "time" comes.yeah,the most difficult time is about to come.
i was asleep.
somebody knocked.
i opened the door.
a familiar face peeked in.
BOOM!i found myself in the same situation.it arrived again unannounced.
...problem manufacturer - that's how my friend termed me when i was confiding with her yesterday.i can't even blame her.i have been thinking a lot lately that i even found myself trapped within my own mind and emotion with how i perceive things.this is exactly the point where i am right now,right this time.I actually never thought that i would be writing this entry soon but ideas came pouring like it has a life of its own.
i am annoyed.
love is a "special" feeling but i must admit,i am getting annoyed with it as of yet or should i say most of the time.if i can only term it negatively,let me say that love is BULLSHIT.However, ironically speaking i also like it as much as i hate it.funny.blah!blah!blah!
"they used to say that i had that poor-choice-of-partner capability.i really don't think so.it just all happened.and right now,i must admit,i feel myself helplessly falling,holding on to the feeling of love towards this person.it feels that it is so right when it's completely wrong.a lot of times,i have some intracommunication,reminding myself to control my emotion,think clear and be responsible.but at the back of my mind,i admit that i really had a great time with him and even if i turned the clock back,i would make the same choice.no remorse.no regrets".
i am feeling that,i admit but i know logically speaking that is BULLSHIT.CRAP.
love is the reason why people started to confuse logic from emotion and emotion from logic.
"you are just complicating things," she said.
i know,and if only it was never hard to choose,it wouldn't get this far.like i was stuck on a situation where in i was asking myself should i turn away and run to a safe place or jump off the cliff and see what happens?poor me.it is so hard enough to deal with your very own self.pathetic.
Moving forward,whichever it is,not only him,every people we meet always has a great impact in our existence.we just have to keep in mind that there are some things that are not really meant to be.there is always this person who,unfortunately gets away.worst is,he or she should have been the one but just arrived at a later time.And,realistically speaking,learning to live without the people that we used to be with will be a tremendous adjustment we have to cope with.as they said,they had been a part of your journey,of your existence and at the latter part of this game,we will discover why it had happened.Inevitably we will soon live in a tangled life and rarely,it seems to be pointless to try untangling it.
i am in pain,and i know it's going to be a million times worse when that "time" comes.yeah,the most difficult time is about to come.
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