last chance.

last chance.let me have my last dance with you.

-have you ever lost someone you loved and wanted one more conversation,one more chance to make up for the time that you thought they will be with you forever?funny it seems but hell right, i did.fool.bloody fool.how stupid am i of not anticipating that in this damn world,we win some,yet we lose some.as they normally quote when someone gets broken,in every successful love story,someone will certainly cry.sad part is,i used to experience the latter.i am blown to bits.

i have been aching for a long time now, and yet i opted to feel and savor the misery and pain until hopefully, it's completely gone.well,it would really require much effort,much strength.as a matter of fact, crying, which has been a sort of relief, has been habitual for me now.a day won't last without those tears running down on my cheeks as though they had life of their own.i cannot really elaborate how hell am i going through but all i know is the fucking truth that i am so down.i am really down.and all i am waiting right now,is for this damn feeling to abate by merely accepting that good things don't last most of the time.in the long run,i am really hoping that this anyhow has been a good turn for the two of us.what really matters at the end is that we have loved,i have loved.

"three words,eight letters,say it and I'm yours," - Blair (gossip girl)

never in those every minute we had shared he verbally affirm what he was feeling to me.i longed for it i guess for four months but i failed to hear him saying that.and just when i haven't expected such,out of nowhere i finally heard him saying 'hey,i love you,'.what would you expect from me,then?startled.

moving forward,nothing in this life has been coincidental.everything that happens,happens with reasons we may not be able to figure out upfront.misfortunes take place just like a bullet which doesn't give a damn who they kill.we just have to get used to life's own rhythm until we get its beat and be able to gracefully dance with it.