lunatic.fragile.bitch

yeah.i almost got crazy.it was very tiring.not just physically,but emotionally and psychologically as well.seven days had passed,but a lot of things had happened.a lot of realizations.a lot of worries.i don't even know how to put all of those in words.i honestly don't know how the week started.worst,i don't know that it ended until i found myself doing this stuff.just an indication that it's my time to think things over once again.yeah,this week is over.and oh!what a week it has been.

work matters-





i have been with the company i am currently working for one year, one month and 13 days to be exact.that's 408 days.quite long,right?but no progress.oh well,shall being the number one team out of 40 teams the account has could be something that i myself can be proud of?i guess.but hey,that's not everything that i can be.this is not the life i am aiming to have.and i don't want to limit myself and completely indulge in such.i hate it.i honestly do.

i hate a routinary life.everybody does,i guess.
i am getting tired dealing with (excuse me for the term) stupid texans.oh!pity them.really.
i hate the environment.the workplace.
i hate the way employees are being treated.
i hate the political system that it has.
i hate it.i just do.

but on the other side,probably the reason why i am still with the company and finally learned to value my work will be because -

i love the people i work with.
*just a few of them, i repeat,just a few of them*

school matters-



i missed being in the academe.
i missed being "simpleng mag-aaral"
i missed the feeling it brings whenever i wake up and heavy rain is pouring that you are just waiting for information dissemination that "hey!classes have been suspended today!"
i missed the food trip at night whenever our classes would end.
i missed chatting with people that showed me the real meaning of friendship.
i missed being with people who i know accepted and valued me for who am i.
i missed everything about being a student.
and this is something that is ironic.


family matters -



issue of the week i guess.
THANKFUL.VERY MUCH.
that's all i can say.

heart matters -




he won my heart.
he was, and he'll forever does.


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i honestly don't know why amidst the deep thinking i came up with such.
random.
might be senseless.
i had a hard time putting all those in words.
and so i limited it.
two,three words are enough.safe.

i am lunatic.
i am fragile.
i am bitch,and
i love myself for that.