i just wanted to cry.

best-KEPT-secret.indeed.

"if we contemplate on the past for too long,we pass up the chance to change and grow.whether we like it or not,it takes extra effort to accommodate changes in our lives.we have to make choices.we have to let things go.we have to let things change."

let go.let things change.it's never that easy.it never was and it will never be.

i literally want to cry.it makes me feel ill.i am doing this blog pensively,spontaneously.i just wanted to outburst everything.i wanted to cry because it would going to be a relief somehow.but i'm annoyed to do that.this is a petty thing i am not supposed to dwell that much.but i can't resist.i honestly can't.

i shouldn't concede that to happen.i was too brave that i wished and hoped i was not that brave enough.i was startled i have done two stupid things.it was completely awry.it doesn't bring good.it never did.well,things like this happen,and it hurts like hell when this shit happens to you.believe me.i am grieving as if i lost someone and it seems that it was never that easy.oh,it never was.my bad.i am pretty aware what to do.i am not supposed to make a fool out of myself competing with other girls.if it wasn't meant to be,it's not.i have to accept that.but i end up loving him.again and again and again.phony guy.

me and my friends together with one of the most valuable persons i met at work was having a tete-a-tete earlier this day.amidst that she mentioned,though not the exact words,she said,you can fight but you always have to know when to stop.and it doesn't mean you have given up.it's pure acceptance only valiant people can do.if there's one thing that i'll be grateful being a valiant lady,that's learning how to accept and knowing when to fight and when to stop.it's pointless to fight if it's not worth fighting for.we all know that.

*it's weird that we always know what to do but still we opted to be hurt and grieve over a matter.awful.*

being single have been too much fun.but it's always nice to think that you have someone to share your life with
other than family and friends.as i get to bed right after this,i know,i'll fall asleep crying.how i hope in that way,everything will end..