weekend,a sought after part of the week before.I'm the person who was always looking forward spending weekend in a normal way a normal people will do.a time to spend with family and friends.to relax,to rest.it's the most enjoyable part of the day for me.just like the enticing cake decoration a kid would usually fight for.but this time,it was the other way around.this is one of the worthy-to-be-remarkable weekend ever passed in my life mostly in the negative sense.one of the weekends i didn't wait for and look forward to.if only i could stop the clock,i should have done that.but i can't,and this needs to happen,though it's too hard for me to swallow.
i haven't slept yet since last Friday or should i say,recently.ironic,each shift was tiring and yet,i can't get enough sleep and rest.everything was sudden and how i wish i should have managed each thing to happen one at a time.however,it was uncontrollable.there's no turning back the clock.and that saddened me a lot.
'tol finally left last night in line with the work waiting for him in the Middle East after a month of preparing all the necessary stuffs.yeah,just a month was given,and it was just last june 23rd when he knew he will leave five days after.another enormous shock not only for me,but for my family as well,and that's pretty much predictable.we always knew it will be for him,for his betterment.but the thought of him leaving,us parting ways makes me sick.it does,it really does.and the scenario last night is one of those i wasnt able to manage to pretend.flood of emotions.i was always the kind of sibling who wouldnt let any in our family see the weak side of me.i always make it a point that i will not cry with them seeing me.i'm not that type.no matter how heavy the situation and the atmosphere is,i make sure they wouldn't see me crying.better not in fact.but yesternight was a different one,and i opted to outburst my emotion.just an indication.
he is the best brother i have.words wouldnt be enough to express how best he is for me at the same thing that this page wouldnt be wide enough for me to enumerate all the good things and eliviate everything.if the word bestest exists,then i would tag him as one.if at the age of twenty one i have gone through a lot,at the age of twenty eight he had gone more than what a have gone through.he deserves to be happy.he deserves a lot.and i know in time,he'll finally will..this is a part of his journey and in the latter part,certainly we will discover why it happened.
today is the first day that he was gone.thanks,thanks for the power of net connection and mobile phones that we can still keep in touch with him no matter what part of the world he is.in that way,somehow it lightens the situation between us.he may be gone in a while,in six months,a year or two,i honestly don't know how long but i promised him,when he gets back we are still complete in the literal sense and Ilocos will also be waiting for us,sure thing.
oh,this is a lazy weekend,i got no plans and i am still trying to recover...i wish i can get enough sleep as tonight turns into a day...weekend is again,ALMOST OVER...
i haven't slept yet since last Friday or should i say,recently.ironic,each shift was tiring and yet,i can't get enough sleep and rest.everything was sudden and how i wish i should have managed each thing to happen one at a time.however,it was uncontrollable.there's no turning back the clock.and that saddened me a lot.
'tol finally left last night in line with the work waiting for him in the Middle East after a month of preparing all the necessary stuffs.yeah,just a month was given,and it was just last june 23rd when he knew he will leave five days after.another enormous shock not only for me,but for my family as well,and that's pretty much predictable.we always knew it will be for him,for his betterment.but the thought of him leaving,us parting ways makes me sick.it does,it really does.and the scenario last night is one of those i wasnt able to manage to pretend.flood of emotions.i was always the kind of sibling who wouldnt let any in our family see the weak side of me.i always make it a point that i will not cry with them seeing me.i'm not that type.no matter how heavy the situation and the atmosphere is,i make sure they wouldn't see me crying.better not in fact.but yesternight was a different one,and i opted to outburst my emotion.just an indication.
he is the best brother i have.words wouldnt be enough to express how best he is for me at the same thing that this page wouldnt be wide enough for me to enumerate all the good things and eliviate everything.if the word bestest exists,then i would tag him as one.if at the age of twenty one i have gone through a lot,at the age of twenty eight he had gone more than what a have gone through.he deserves to be happy.he deserves a lot.and i know in time,he'll finally will..this is a part of his journey and in the latter part,certainly we will discover why it happened.
today is the first day that he was gone.thanks,thanks for the power of net connection and mobile phones that we can still keep in touch with him no matter what part of the world he is.in that way,somehow it lightens the situation between us.he may be gone in a while,in six months,a year or two,i honestly don't know how long but i promised him,when he gets back we are still complete in the literal sense and Ilocos will also be waiting for us,sure thing.
oh,this is a lazy weekend,i got no plans and i am still trying to recover...i wish i can get enough sleep as tonight turns into a day...weekend is again,ALMOST OVER...
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