remarkable breed.

"respect is being earned,you are aware of it, right?" - theresa

this morning was indeed something unusual.i woke up around six in the morning and found myself engaged in conversation with some of the people i really used to confide with ever since.topic?gaining respect and being respected.the published response from a friend of mine retained in my mind.how i hope that response would make me to be completely sane.she benignly and bluntly sent that text to me when i mentioned about having respect.and she was right,it's something that we earn.that statement was stressed out when she added. "it's how you treat yourself and the people around you...how you stand by the values you believe in..."

i am living in a big bad world full of creeps, jerks and cheaters.and the probability of finding good one seemed about as great as finding needle in the proverbial haystack.i am craving for something good to happen instead of disaster and trauma.i am getting to be severely disappointed to myself and how i wish i can manage the soonest time possible to turn the ship around.on the contrary,i still find myself enjoying what am i doing.too bad.

amidst the conversation different suggestions were raised,however none of them sounded appealing to me.or,it could be the other way around.it's just that,i opted not to take that into consideration AS OF THE MEAN TIME.

i am wanting for someone that i love to take care of me emotionally or at the very least,have a serious romance.i hated realizing that i am lonely.i am starting to hate myself in the same manner that i started hating all the guys for their foibles.that weakness of them is just like how H1N1 is being considered now in our nation - PANDEMIC.i am dying to fathom that it's their nature,but i can't cause i don't want to.perfidy is their nature.

"hello-goodbye-thank you-get lost" - i am getting tired of this.the thought of this makes me feel ill somehow.i am feeble.

my tyrant immediate boss and the herculean work i have plus the dozen of friends i can count on anytime of the day divert my attention into something that has a lot more sense that what i do have now.they actually helped me finding something that would occupy my time which is a lot more fulfilling than my usual routine.i am grateful i have them.

i'm in quest of knowing how would you drop a bomb for someone you care for?i wanted to stay away out of respect.but for some reason,i can't.

i am a remarkable breed.i deserve some damn respect just like every other women in town.