yeah right,where are those words when you mostly need them?
nineteen days,NINETEEN DAYS had passed.there's so much things that happened and i just can't figure out if i am just being lazy to enumerate those and put in words or i just don't feel like posting unlikely events here?also possible that i can't grab a time to blog since i am pretty busy with other stuff.oh,forget about it.
it's not good to admit but i am thinking now that i am living a nonsense life.i feel i am one of the automatons scattered in this planet.my life seems to be programmed.and i hate to admit,it feels good at SOME POINT to be one,that you are one of those made out of granite.
how's life bumping me so far?
it's really true that at times we must let things go.it surely hurts,but being hurt doesn't mean you have done the wrong thing and complicated things either.it doesn't always follow.it's an altruistic act. it's just we think it will be the best option to choose to for all the persons involved.truly,we convince ourselves it would be for the better.BUT IT'S DAMN HARD.and with this i came to realize that it's not so true that when you love someone you will do anything to keep them with you.there's an exemption.and in my case,letting go is the best option.
"Love has all the lasting permanence of rainbow,beautiful while it's there and just likely to have disappeared by the time you blink".
right,life isn't really as stable as we want it to be.CHANGE is inevitable.be it gradual or drastic.be it positive or negative.cliche as it may sound but nothing in this world is permanent,to put it simply.NO GUARANTEES OF EVERYTHING.
i am moving on.i feel fine most of the time because most probably not conversing with him is a great help.i can't remember who stopped but i know it's the one of the easiest ways out.but when my his eyes meet mine,just realized that something is always going on within me and it never seems to end.indescribable feeling,i tell you. until this time,there is always something about him that appeals to me,and that makes it harder.truly,it is not difficult to avoid someone if you want to,i repeat IF YOU WANT TO.
you know what?most of the time i have to paste smile on my face,just to let him see that i am okay and happy.and the worst thing?to pretend that he doesn't exist when in fact he is always in my thought.that's a lot more depressing.and to be honest,there were entire days when i did nothing but cry inside.it just plain hurts too much.ultimately painful.
i think i just lost him before he is gone.yet i know that is the best thing to be done.
nineteen days,NINETEEN DAYS had passed.there's so much things that happened and i just can't figure out if i am just being lazy to enumerate those and put in words or i just don't feel like posting unlikely events here?also possible that i can't grab a time to blog since i am pretty busy with other stuff.oh,forget about it.
it's not good to admit but i am thinking now that i am living a nonsense life.i feel i am one of the automatons scattered in this planet.my life seems to be programmed.and i hate to admit,it feels good at SOME POINT to be one,that you are one of those made out of granite.
how's life bumping me so far?
it's really true that at times we must let things go.it surely hurts,but being hurt doesn't mean you have done the wrong thing and complicated things either.it doesn't always follow.it's an altruistic act. it's just we think it will be the best option to choose to for all the persons involved.truly,we convince ourselves it would be for the better.BUT IT'S DAMN HARD.and with this i came to realize that it's not so true that when you love someone you will do anything to keep them with you.there's an exemption.and in my case,letting go is the best option.
"Love has all the lasting permanence of rainbow,beautiful while it's there and just likely to have disappeared by the time you blink".
right,life isn't really as stable as we want it to be.CHANGE is inevitable.be it gradual or drastic.be it positive or negative.cliche as it may sound but nothing in this world is permanent,to put it simply.NO GUARANTEES OF EVERYTHING.
i am moving on.i feel fine most of the time because most probably not conversing with him is a great help.i can't remember who stopped but i know it's the one of the easiest ways out.but when my his eyes meet mine,just realized that something is always going on within me and it never seems to end.indescribable feeling,i tell you. until this time,there is always something about him that appeals to me,and that makes it harder.truly,it is not difficult to avoid someone if you want to,i repeat IF YOU WANT TO.
you know what?most of the time i have to paste smile on my face,just to let him see that i am okay and happy.and the worst thing?to pretend that he doesn't exist when in fact he is always in my thought.that's a lot more depressing.and to be honest,there were entire days when i did nothing but cry inside.it just plain hurts too much.ultimately painful.
i think i just lost him before he is gone.yet i know that is the best thing to be done.
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